at last solved

the things i should have said.

you tell me to turn off the lights and sit down and smile. but i refuse to be trapped inside of myself again. i will not let myself be defined by others. i do not want to put out the burning fire inside of myself, because often i find that it is the only thing that keeps me going. there is no way i am going to be left with only ashes again. i deserve where i am today more than many others, and i will keep striving forward. my backpack is heavy from carrying years of sadness and unspilled tears. i am unwilling to just forget about all the things i should have done, all the places i should have travelled, all the things i should have said. i refuse to leave those things undone. unfinished. empty. i crave more than to be recognised only as simple.