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Dear Nicholas,
I remember the first day we met. It was a Wednesday... Wednesday 17th of September 2014.
Wait, I'll start from the very beginning.
It was my third day at school, and it was the first time I stayed in school for lunch. That day, I was nervous that they wouldn't like me, but turns out they were great. You know Romance, Alexis, and the Portugal guy, also the two girls that I couldn't quite remember their names.
I asked the girl with black hair and grey eyes, if I could sit with her at lunch since I didn't have anyone to sit with. She was really nice, and she said, "Yeah sure, come on."
I followed her with my plate, where I put a two cheese pies and some vanilla. Honestly, I was really shy and I didn't even know what I put in my plate, like what kind of pies. All what was running through my head is, 'Do not embarrass yourself'.
Anyway, I followed that girl to the table where her and her friends were sitting and I recognized that girl; you know the one with blonde hair and blue eyes? Who wears glasses? Yeah, well that's the one I'm talking about.
And there was also another guy, I don't know if you know him. He has like blue eyes and blonde hair, a bit of acne too. Back to the main point, I sat a bit far from them and then the blonde girl with glasses told me to come closer. I remember she was like, "For God's sake come closer, we're not going to eat you."
I shyly smiled and nodded my head, sitting closer to them. Two minutes later, Alexis and Roman came with their plates in their hands. Oh and also a girl with black hair and huge glasses. Ugh, I'm sorry I'm really bad with names, I can barely remember them. Alexis sat next to me and Roman in front of me and well the Portugal guy sat beside Roman and the other girl with black hair beside Roman too.
I felt very shy and I don't know...quite embarrassed and stuff ugh. Alexis was telling us about how the teacher didn't let him sing today, for an unknown reason while I was trying to eat the pie with the fork. Don't laugh, in Lebanon pies aren't like pies in France.
Add the fact that I have never really eaten a cheese pie so I was confused and I didn't know how to eat it. I picked the fork and started eating the cheese first and suddenly the whole table went silent. I gulped and looked up just to find everyone looking at me. Seconds later, they all burst out laughing. I bite my lip and dropped the fork, not really knowing what's so funny.
"What are you even doing?" Roman asked me, trying to maintain his laughter. I raised an eyebrow and answered him, "Uh, eating?" I was officially confused, you know? I didn't even know what is there to laugh about.
"This is Tarte Au Fromage my dear; we don't eat it like that." The girl with black hair beside him explained, and I nodded my head, my lips forming an 'oh'.
Roman nodded his head and started telling me how to eat it. "You hold the pie in your hand, and you just take a bite, like that." He took a huge bite and started mashing it. I was shocked you know? Like how do you even eat a pie with your hands? I seem ridiuclous, I know but the thing is that it's a pie, shouldn't we eat it with a fork and a knife?
"Are you sure Roman? Like I just eat it- like all of it like that?"
"Yes you do, c'mon."
Gulping, I took the pie in my hands, and looked at it. My sight went back to their faces who were all waiting for me to taste it. As the pie approached my lips, I shook my head. "I can't do this."
Everybody burst out in laughing again, as I groaned. "I just can't eat it!"
"C'mon, you hold it in your hands, you put it in your mouth and you start mashing. That's all; simple as heck." Roman repeated as I had the huge urge to groan out loud. Ugh! Can I even do that? It's weird! I have never seen such a thing eaten that way!
"Alright then. I'll try it again but not with this pie, it kind of looks ugly now." I stated putting it aside, making them laugh again. I grabbed the other one and placed it in front of me, looking back at Roman who was smiling.
"hey, if you don't want it can I take it?" The Portugal guy asked and I nodded at him smiling. He clearly loves food.
"C'mon eat it." Roman spoke as everyone looked again. I bite my lip, feeling awkwardness rush into me.
"Okay but you guys close your eyes." I said with a shy smile. They all laughed again and Alexis spoke,
"Seriously now?"
"Kind of, I'm not comfortable with people looking at me while I eat." I confessed with a cheeky grin. Well they were all kind of looking at me, waiting to see me devouring the cheese pie.
"Alright everyone close your eyes! Tala wants to eat! Close your eyes Alexis, I can see you cheating" Roman joked closing the Portugal guy's eyes and the girl beside him eyes.
I laughed along with them as Roman closed his eyes, "See, I'm not looking." He stated making us laugh again. "Alright here comes the big moment." I murmured to myself, as I brought the pie closer to my mouth. But then I noticed Roman looking.
"Roman! You're cheating!" I spoke, breaking the silence and making everyone groan.
"Just eat the damn thing already, lunch period is gonna be over soon and you still haven't eaten anything." Alexis stated making my cheeks turn red. Ugh! I swear it's not my fault I didn't know how to eat it!
"Hey Alex, do you want your carrots?" Portugal guy asked interrupting us, as he gave Alexis the puppy dog face look. Alexis turned to face him and answered him, "yes I do."
Portugal guy pouted and turned back to his place, crossing his arms over his chest. "I don't want mine, take them." Roman said, giving Portugal guy his plate. I could practically see the grin that reached his ears as he started eating Roman's carrots.
I took a deep breath and brought the pie closer to my mouth, and took a small bite. I started mashing slowly on it, and when I brought my sight back to the guys, they started clapping and whistling. "See, that wasn't so hard now."
I nodded my head feeling a bit shy because you know, I am not exactly comfortable with people watching me eat. I mean, I know we're at lunch and stuff, but it's just something about myself issue.
"And you're not gonna eat something else?" Roman asked me.
I shook my head, "No it's fine." I smiled warmly at him while he raised his eyebrows curiously at me. I truly hoped he didn't think I was anorexic or something because I'm not. I know that I'm very skinny but I'm definitely not anorexic. I was just feeling too shy to get up and put some more food. Stupid self-esteem problems!
"You sure you won't get hungry? We still have four hours till we can go home."
I nodded my head at him, "Positive." I confirmed, even though I knew I was probably going to be hungry.
And you know what Nicholas? For the first time in forever, I felt like I had some friends...Like some people actually liked me...I felt like I was warmly welcomed between them.
And that was the best feeling ever.
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a/n gosh I miss those days...
