Melancholy

Did I fall in love?

(A.N: physical, animal and self abuse is involved. Please don't read this part if not comfortable)

Vern Vincent

"I cannot see anyone die. What do you think, I did all this on my own will? NO! You have no idea what I went through. Actually no one has any idea. I tried fighting. But I could never..." I cried removing all the frustration

"Shh... Stop crying. I'm here now. No one will ever touch you, until I die. And I'll make sure you will fight." he pulled my head towards his chest and patted it. I could feel the change in his voice. It sounded broken. I didn't know how I felt safe in his embrace.

"But who will die?" Dean asked

"Animals... Animals would. Every time I didn't listen to him, he would kill an animal. I still remember him being my best cousin."

"Then.. what happened?"

"Everything changed.. in the starting, I always thought he would have touched me by mistake. One day my other cousin noticed it and told me about it, but I never believed. That evening he did touch me and that's when I knew. I slapped him and that's when he changed... He changed into a monster" I rubbed my face. "Then he started forcing me, I didn't accept. So, he started to hit me and then he went back. And after six months, we went to my Grammy's place and I ended up staying alone with him one day. He tried forcing me to strip, I slapped his face, he told me 'not to worry. He will make sure I won't loose my virginity.' " I rolled my eyes. "He asked me to let him touch me, and again I didn't accept. The next thing he did in anger was, put my grammy's bunny in the grinder and switched it on. I saw the bunny die. I begged him to let it go but he didn't. He took an other bunny to do the same.. that's when I allowed him. He has kept doing this now. There are already five pigeons, three bunny, one rat, one puppy and I don't even know how many lizards have died because of this. I hate him. I wanna have a better life. I don't want this." I cried.

(A.N: you can continue from here)

"Shhhh.... " Alex cupped my cheeks "I'm here. I will make sure you have a better life. I promise." He told, kissing my forehead. I didn't know how his warmth felt so safe. There was fire ignited inside me. I didn't know what was the feeling I had. "By the way I'm Kiaan" he rubbed my back.

What?? Kiaan??? Ohhh it's his name!!

I chuckled a little. "I wanna go home." I got up. He walked me back home. The walk was silent. I didn't know what was wrong with me, I had a different feeling.

Wait.... Did I fall in love???
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Author's note...

Guys!! There is no Kiaan's (Alex's) point of view in this story. But there are few diary entries which will be put up to let you guys know his feelings.

Thank you!!

Now continue reading....
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Diary entry

Dear diary,

I have started writing you again. I thought everything was over. I had nothing to write about anymore, until today. I met this pretty girl few days ago. I have been seeing around from the time I have come here. She is so damn beautiful. She is not like the other girls with fake ass. We started with a fight. But now she will act like my girlfriend, I'm forcing her to. Common, the whole gang wants me to date her. I can't help, but force her to. We have become closer than we expected. When I learnt about her cousin. I felt my skin ripping apart! How can anyone do this to a girl so sweet, or to any girl! How can anyone do this to Vern, my Vern. She was so fragile in my hand today. I felt those eyes asking me to protect her. I cannot protect her for long. I want to though. Aghhh I hate fait for making me meet this girl, getting close to her,  falling for her and then not able to tell her, not able to be with her, love, respect, care and protect her. I can never do stuff with her which I always wanted to with the girl I love. Why God? why? Why me? What had I done to deserve this? I hate myself for falling for her! I hate all of it.
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