The Melancholy of Celine Rashima

The Melancholy

I woke up with the sun shining on my face, when I got up the nurse already served breakfast, I turned my gaze to the table beside me, I recognized something odd, a letter, I felt chill on my spine as I read the words, as I read through the lines , I didn't realize my tears flowing, who Is he?, I don't know him but his words seemed so familiar, I want to meet him, no, I need to meet him who am I to him? So many questions flow through my mind but with such little answers? Who is he? He wrote his name, my head feels hazy as blurry visions flash into my head, who is he?

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The wind is blowing, the leave are falling, walking on a familiar street, every breath taken heavier than the other, as the steps I take slowly gets faster, faster and faster, I finally see you on the other side of the street, waving our hands as we see each other, smiling like never before... *CRASH!... I was too shocked to move, a woman screeched in horror, I was put back to my senses, I rushed to the bleeding girl covered in blood, I wish I could've saved you.... "You were to excited you idiot!" I sobbed as tears flowing endlessly down my cheeks holding her body in my arms red in blood, my clothes stained in red, people were in shock, I have lost all reason, my mind went blank, I couldn't hear anything around me, minutes later they came men dressed in white, they took her away.... "P-PLEASE S-SAVE HER, PLEASE!" I yelled to the man dressed in white, he simply answered with a nod... I wish I could've saved her, the thoughts flooded my mind "I'm worthless" "I'm a worthless man" the thoughts kept circulating around echoing in my mind... "What can I do?" 

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Its colder now, the wind blows stronger now, but I still can't forget about you even until now.

Months have passed since her accident, for months I heard nothing about her, I tried to ask her parents but they just won't tell me, I asked our friends but still nothing, I was overjoyed when her parents finally told me she survived...I rushed to the hospital, asked the clerk for the room number, "4567"she said, she tried to tell me something but I didn't listen, I was too excited to see her. I opened the door smiling, "Who are you?" she said, the mere words were daggers piercing my heart... Does she have amnesia, wait, wait, maybe she's just messing with me... "it's me Isaac, Don't you remember me?" I said while trying to fish out the words in my mouth I wanted to tell her so many things "no, I am sorry but I don't remember you" she said In a cold voice obviously scared of me "Celine, it's me Isaac, please Celine please I'm begging you please remember me please!" I said, I was getting desperate I looked at her eyes, dead, eyes colder than that of an animal, my phone rang, I walked outside the room, I took a look at my phone, it was Celine's Dad, her father's voice was stern but shaky, " did you meet her?" her father asked me " how is she? How is my daughter doing?" he continued to ask, "Why doesn't she remember me?" I asked in silent desperation, "Amnesia" her father said. "we too were shocked, at first when she didn't remember us" he added "How long?" I asked with feelings of betrayal in my mind "how long have you known!?" I yelled in anger, "3 months, we've known for 3 months" her father silently said, I hung up, I know he was against our relationship but how could he do this to a person, I was fucking worried, I went back inside the room, I looked at Celine's face, "can't you really remember me?" I finally said after the long minute of silence..."NO"she said looking down.

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  "This Is Bullshit" I said silently, I can't take it any longer. I can't take it anymore, this has to end, No, this needs to end, I can't take the pain.

I wish I could just turn back the clock and forget everything, I couldn't bare the madness, wherever I go there is a shadow of you, wherever I go I'll be yearning for you, "I will return "someday" my love" I said gazing at Celine at the corner of the room her defenseless sleeping body, so innocent, so frail and soft, I kissed her hands and left off a letter saying , "my dear Celine, it's me, sorry I was such a coward and I couldn't face the fact that you forgot me, I am sorry I couldn't fulfil our promise, I love you, I love you so much I wouldn't give a shit even if the world is against us, but I'm a coward, I love you, if you remember me please keep loving me, I promise I will return someday, I promise. – Isaac" tears rolled down my cheeks as I left the hospital, I could only hope she'd read my letter, I wish she'd remember me.