The journal of Abigail June Sixx

I hate dying

I had loved every second of that night. 

But all good things with me seems to have some sort of interruption or something happens. 

And this was no acceptation. 

Along with my fatigue and my hair falling out, I was dropping in weight fast. To where you could see my rib cage and my spinal chord and my bones in my fingers. 

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October 28th, 2015

Well! I never saw this coming! I was sitting here just enjoying myself with Courtney. Writing in my journal all the details of the concert. And I heard the door open. 

I did not look up from my writing and I heard heavy footsteps walk into the dressing room. 

I looked up and saw the band. Their bassist made a bee-line and headed towards their mini bar and begin to make himself a drink. He came and sat down across from us. My heart dropped when he pulled his phone out and completely ignored us. 

He had always been my favorite member of the band. And I was hoping to talk to him for a bit. I closed my journal and put it back into my purse. 

"Come on. Let's go. He is not going to even talk to me." I said as my sister-in-law nodded. She looked at the rest of the band and they were all glaring at him. 

"On second thought, no." I said as my temper got higher and Courtney knew I was like her husband. His temper was not something to be messed with. She shook her head and gave me a look that silently pleaded 'Please don't' . I ignored her pleas and cleared my throat. 

"Out of all the members of this band, you were always my favorite Ashley. I was looking forward to talking with you. But this is just typical. International rockstar, showing that he is better then his fans. That he claims means so much to him. I have a hard time believing this Purdy." I snapped looking straight at him. 

His eyes snapped up towards me and he put his phone down. "So you want some of my attention? Why don't you start by showing less of that anorexic body of yours. I have seen  my fair share of that shit." He said as Andy marched over and smacked him on the back of the head. 

"She is dying you mother fucker! You knew this when you gave her big brother these passes and tickets!" He snapped with venom. Ashley looked at me and sighed. I sat there with my arms crossed and waited for his response back. 

My head suddenly screamed and I was on my knees. I held onto it and screamed as it pounded all over the place. It felt like it was going to break into a million pieces. 

"MAKE IT STOP! IT IS KILLING ME!" I screamed as I closed my eyes. I heard Courtney speak softly to me. 

"I am going to give you a shot." She said as I nodded. I felt wetness on my hip and a sharp stab and in seconds the pain was going away. I felt nothing. No pain in my head. Just numbness. It spread all over my head and I was able to stand back up. I opened my eyes and stood back up and sat in my chair. 

"No. There is no way in hell that I will associate with a girl like her." Ashley said as I shot to my feet. I marched over and slapped him across the face. "You are such an asshole." I said as I turned and walked away. Andy came towards me and pulled me into a warm and comforting hug. 

I hugged the singer back as he held me in his arms. He let go and looked at me. "You are so gorgeous. Ignore him. If you need anything, just give me a call." He said softly as he handed me his phone. 

My eyes got wide with shock as my hands began to shake. I put in my information and handed it back. He kissed my temple as I handed him my phone. He added his and slipped it back into my back pocket. He patted my butt gently and I blushed. 

"Well! We best get going. We still have another band to meet." Courtney said as I nodded. I was still in his arms. "How about we get a group picture? And we will all give you our numbers. Just in case something happens. And here! We have this for you. Its a bag of stuff. And some things we wore on stage tonight." Jinxx said as I turned towards the giant. 

We all got into a group and Ashley stood beside Andy. The band did not allow him to come near me. After his comments. Which I think was wise. His number was not added to my phone. 

I walked out of there and shook my head. "I just want to go back home. I am tired." I said to Courtney. She sighed and patted my back. "I know. I can tell by the look in your eyes. But we need to at least meet this other band." She said as I nodded. She pulled out a Monster and opened it and took a few drinks and handed it to me. I smirked and took some drinks and we walked down the hall.

"You know, I think Ashley is probably getting his ass kicked for his stunt. That is so not like him. I wonder what made him act like that?" She asked as I shrugged. I took a drink and handed it to her. 

We got to the door and knocked. I heard yelling and a thump and more yelling as someone came towards the door. It opened and I saw a pair of stunning brown eyes look at mine. 

I took a step and my mind suddenly went blank. I backed up and Courtney looked at me. "You okay honey?" She asked as I looked at her. "Who are you? Where are we? And who is this?" I said as her eyes went wide. 

"I am sorry Remington. But there has been a change of plans. I have to get this girl home. Something is not right." She said as he nodded. She went to pull me and I pulled away. 

"DO not touch me. I have no idea who you are!" I said as I began to get scared.

Remington just stood there with the door open and looked helpless. "ABIGAIL! YOU ARE OKAY! MY NAME IS EMERSON! THIS IS MY BROTHER REMINGTON! AND YOUR SISTER-IN-LAW COURTNEY!" A guy with a funky hat on yelled as I watched him. 

Nothing was registering as my mind continued to be blank. He sighed and shook his head. 

Suddenly, I collapsed into someone's arms.