SOMEONE...UNEXPECTEDLY

NEVER DID I

Never Did I

Never did I imagine that I would be attracted to a man of your descent
Yet here I am captivated by your touch, talk and the time we've spent
It terrifies me to know that I could like someone white
I tried to deny liking his behind but I am losing the fight
Never did I think that I would long for his presence
Just the fluent conversations, laughter and silliness is essence
It makes me look at him with colorless eyes
But then I fear myself truly caring for someone white and then I live out lies
Lies that I could never, would never and that he is not a good fit
But truthfully I like so much about him that it's hard not to flip
Flip the script and take a white man on as my lover
But what will I think of me? What about my brothas?
Never did I hope to be held by someone as much I want to be held by him
It's as though I am his and he is my rare gem
But could true love ever blossom from this interracial fling?
I keep denying myself my truth because I fear everything
Everything like if we fail will it make me hate anyone not like me!
Will it actually last and he bring out the best parts of me?
I hate that I like you as much as I do
Because never did I see myself involved with a man like you
I want to try yet I am afraid of making the wrong move
Never did I imagine that I would like a white...simply a YOU