I spent most of the day disconnected from special media and I just hung out with James at his house.
I'm home now and I'm getting ready to go to bed. I remove my makeup and braid my hair. I put my clothes on and run into the kitchen to make myself a hot chocolate and I facetime James. Although I saw him all day today I can't not be talking to him. And every night if we are not with each other we FaceTime each other til we fall asleep. Once my drink is done I go to my room and talk to James until I fall asleep.
The morning
I woke up at 6 to go for a surf. I love the way the sun rises in the morning, and how the glow reflects on the water. mesmerising. i just sit there in the calm water people watching. watching everyone walk past and cars drive past, before i know it it's 8am and i have to head home. on the way i see ruel on his way down to the beach.
'aww surely stay a little longer?' he groans adjusting his grip on his surf board.
'sure, i have no where else to be' i say turning around and running to race him to the shore. we drop our towels and paddle out the the waves. meanwhile i can't stop giggling.
'i bet i can ride more waves then you!' i giggle paddling out to catch a wave.
'challenge accepted, prepare to be destroyed!' he giggles watching the wave form as we get ready to catch it.
2 hours later
'i won.' i said running past him up to my towel.
'yeah, yeah, i just wasn't in the mindset you know,' he says rolling his eyes
'whatever!' i say laying my towel out to just watch the water.
we sit in complete silence for a good 20 mins.
'i'm sorry lans but why are you acting like nothing happened at the party?' he said turning to face me and give me his undivided attention.
'see ruel the thing is i don't actually know what happened. the last thing i remember from the night is mary handing me a bottle of vodka and then waking up next to james the next day.' i say turning to the waves. 'but it is truely pissing me off how no one is telling me what the hell is going on because you and james are actually really weird, so i believe that i should know what the fuck happened that night.'
'damn.' he says.
'promise you won't get mad.' he asks.
'too late for that!' i say.
'mmhm, well just keep in mind everyone was very drunk. after you were given that bottle of vodka you just drank the whole thing and was running around kissing every single person there and james was getting you some clothes to change into for later. anyways. you and i did more that kiss. you pulled me upstairs and started to undress me. and man was that a good night. anyway. we got it on, we never had sex though. meanwhile james got back and was asking everyone where you were. someone must have told him you pulled me upstairs and he was no happy and he run up and found you on top of me making out. he ripped you off me and he started to punch me and i reacted which is why he has all the bruises on him. then he told you to go down stairs and he told me that if i was to ever talk or look at you he would kill me. which is also why i haven't called or messaged you since. and i shouldn't even be telling you this, and so i'm gonna go.' he finishes without giving me a chance to speak and he jumps up, picks up his bored and makes his way home. i just sit there in awe.
why the hell would i do that and with ruel of all people he's like a brother to me. i mean like we did date in 6th grade but that was 6th grade. fuck what if drunk me is right and i like ruel. but i'm in love with james. can you like someone and be in love with someone at the same time.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
my thoughts are interrupted by mum calling me.
'hey mum what's going on?' i say
