My time of life

Chapter 2: Why oh Why Agustus

Hi I am Hazel Grace and someone has been sneaking up on me for the past 3 days of going out to the support group. For some reason I always feel his presence behind me somewhere, but I just can't see the person watching me. When I first met Agustus he was already so nice, kind, and sweet to me. I feel that he loves me in a way, but I don't know the way. I met some friends like Isaac but I don't really think of him much, only Agustus. I don't know what's wrong with me today, something just went up on my head for no reason, something just struck me with a love arrow or something. I just have to find out about this thing that is going on in my mind that is making me go crazy for love. When Agustus left my house I went to my room and at midnight something happened to me, I had water in my lungs again I don't know if I could go to Amsterdam, we have been planning this since I was a little kid to meet Peter Van Houten. My mom and dad rushed me to the hospital and the doctors told me that there is a 75 % of me NOT going to Amsterdam. I couldn't believe what they have told me, I asked them if I could go again, then they answered no. I suddenly screamed out " THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!! " my mom said that I should calm down and relax, they would find a way for me to be allowed to go to Amsterdam. So I calmed down myself for my good or for my killing of myself, hopefully everything will go well after the 2nd test, cuz before they told me I had 75% of chance to go there, everything made me feel better after I met Gus.