Alphas beta? Alphas Alpha? Alphas omega?

Chapter three

Age 13Third POV
To say being an omega was is easy would be a lie but I'm actually surviving. I'm in 8th grade and have a lot of friends but the only ones that are really close to me are Asher and Rain. I met Rain in 6th grade and we really hit it off. Her and Asher aren't that close but are familiar with each other. They both still don't know I'm an omega though. I don't want them to know. The less people know the more likely I will be come lead scouter.😁
Keeping my secret hasn't been hard considering my heat has not come and cuz I'm a 5'7 8th grader. People assume I'm a beta with alpha genes, 🧬 considering I'm the same height as Asher with a few inches off. The topic has always been uncomfortable for me cause at the end of the day I'm still an omega but I try my best to not let it show.
Everyone around me has already hit puberty besides me I guess. There are male betas and alphas talking about omegas scent and cute girls or female betas swooning over boys. I also see scrawny soft looking little female and male omegas running around beet red in the face. And I guess they had their heat already considering the cat calls and flirting they deal with. I know I don't have to deal with that cuz im literally huge. But it always gets me thinking am I supposed to look this way. Would anyone ever find me attractive once they know I'm an omega. It's not like I'm interested in the cat calls and the flirting shit but I sometimes want to be noticed.😕Im not interested in anyone but i know I'm going to end up with a male and that's what worries me and leaves me depressed. Why would any male want to be with me. I'm a giant that's an omega.😞 why did the moon goddess make me this way and other omega males easier to digest.  They are soft and pale they look like angels And I look like I don't Evan know. Maybe my heat isn't coming because of my delusional bodies that doesn't get it's an omega.
My body is supposed to be small easy to caress and inviting. But I'm the opposite. Big,ruff,and intimidating.

A ball knocking me in the head is what got me at of my pity party themed mind and all though it hurt I was thankful.
Asher ran up to me once he noticed i didn't dodge the ball and apologized saying "I just wanted to alert you or make sure your head was in the game".
Being around all the alphas in school was making my already spinning head hurt more. My ears where starting to burn to so I asked the gym teacher to head to the nurses office. I still had 2 classes left so I wanted to push through.
By the time I got to the nurses office I was more then just dizzy. I felt lightheaded and weak.
The pit of my stomach started to twist and knot itself and I swear I would have screamed if I was at home. I bursted through the doors nearly falling and spoke horsily "help me". Straight after was the oh so familiar darkness.🤕

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I woke to the sound of speech. It was a familiar voice so I didn't panic. I tried to open my eyes and it took about five seconds cuz of how heavy they were. Once I laid eyes on my surroundings to eyes full of pity looked down on me. I was this close to my face contorting into a what face when I was lit in flames. I started panting really hard and I was sweating like crazy. My body felt like I needed to itch and scratch every crook and cranky of it but also just snuggle in a blanket. I felt horrible and thought it couldn't get worst when a smell was out side the door and it made go insane. I didn't know what I was doing and I couldn't control myself. The nurses made sure no one entered my room but that didn't stop me from whimper and moaning like bitch.
I was trashing and bending like a worm and I didn't even notice the tears. I could help but think if I act like this just from a little scent of an alpha what would I do if  he was right near me. Would just give myself away? I always thought I wasn't like that but today my bodies showing me otherwise. The scent long faded but It was stuck in me. I wanted it to warp around me to suffocate me. But that's when my thoughts were interrupted. My mom and dad were right in front of me with shock sadness and worry in their eyes. They never seen me like this and I don't want them to. I feel exposed and disgusting. There my parents and for them to see me in this state made me sick. But did my body listen? nope! It still burned and ached. I still let out pants and whimpers but I stifled my moans to have some sort of dignity. My tears now fell like a waterfall. I was sad, embarrassed, and confused. They taught us about heats but never did I expect this.
My dad lifted me up and I screamed. I hated his hands on my biting skin and I just wanted them gone. He and my mom took me to their car and placed me in the back seat. They drove us home and I quieted down to some extent. When we arrived dad carried me up to my room it didn't hurt as much as before but I think it's just cause Im a little cooled down.
I was now in my bed and anxious and fidgety. I was uncomfortable so I took off my clothes as lied in my boxers. I throw off my blanket and just laid their when the heat rushed back to me. I had no idea how to help myself when I thought of the alpha scent that gave me sort of relief. That's what I tried to focus all my energy and mind on. Rookie mistake though. My body started to heat up faster but it wasn't painful more like a longing. A craving. I looked down at myself and saw that I was very noticeably hard. They blush just took over my face and I was yet again embarrassed. Getting this erect from just a smell of an alpha 🤦‍♀️I was gross. That's when which alpha the smell belonged to got in my  head and pictures of all the alphas at my school kept passing by making me harder then every. I kept on moaning and my erection was getting painful in my boxers. I removed it as softly as possible to not get in rough contact with my pulsing dick.
I laid there in my birthday suit moaning like a whore when my  best friend an alpha sept by my mind and to say I moaned like a bitch would not be enough. I literally thrusted in the the air and my hips buckled while I moaned so loud the neighbors probably herd. My erection was leaking like a fossett and so was my anal whole. I was not only mortified that my back was do what i kinda knew it would but also because my best friend was the trigger. I was so horny that I couldn't help touch my self. Could you blame me I was a 14year old experiencing my first heat. I rubbed my erection soft but diligently and I kept moaning and thinking about Asher watching me. I know it was wrong but it made me feel better. It felt great but wasn't enough. My back side was aching. I reached my left hand back and my face was on the mattress. I felt the wetness of my ass and it made me want to not exist. All cuz of Ashers damn face my body acts like this😩. I was getting excited off of what Asher would do and imagining him watching me. I rubbed the outside of my whole and my legs buckled from the pleasure it gave me. I wanted Ashers hands rubbing me there I wanted anything of Ashers rubbing me there hand, lips, tough or even dick. I I thought that I almost collapsed from the pleasure I felt from my thoughts to my action. Just rubbing wasn't enough I started pushing in my insides. My finger sweat in smoothly because of how wet my whole was. It stretched apart my whole as it penetrated father in my insides. The pleasure and relief was inexperienced. It was amazing. I pushed my finger in as far as it went and pulled it back out and repeated the process over and over adding more fingers as I went(till I was up to 3)  and accelerating in speed. I was thrusting in so hard I forgot all about jerking off. Getting all the pleasure from my back. I wonder what Asher would think. How he'd thrust his fingers in me. Probably harder and faster. They probably would reach father and spread me out wider. Just the thought had me moaning his name repeatedly.

Asher! Asher ! Asssheer!
I couldn't help myself I wanted an alpha to take me.
I wanted an alpha and that's what I screamed while coming down from my high filled pleasure.
I was out of breath weak and tired so I slept.

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I woke up feeling less feverish and it being 11:00 pm in the night. I recalled what I did and I wanted to kill myself not cause I enjoyed it but because my parents were definitely home. I swear I'm going to have a permanent blush on my face for days.

I was scared that they herd me screaming for Asher. He's my best friend and I just came from thinking about him. I don't even like him so I was confused why I wanted him. But I had bigger problems to deal with. Like my rumbling stomach and how I would survive this week long heat if I already this affected from a couple hours. Most importantly though is how I would face Asher knowing what I did.🤦‍♀️Im scared, embarrassed, and confused. But what's knew.
I walked downstairs to the kitchen quietly to not wake up my parents but as I walked in, there they were. I was disappointed and I didn't want to face them. I was going to make a quick run for it when they both said stop in their parenting tone which I hated cause it meant lectures.🙃
Mom stated off speaking saying
"Sweetie please listen to us. We know it's uncomfortable to speak or look us right now  but it's part of growing up. We want to make sure your as knowledgeable about yourself and others as you can be. For your own safety".
I knew she was right but I still didn't want to speak so I sat in the kitchen stole and stayed silent as a sign for her to continue.
She said "Omegas that come of age are different then other genders. Their interactions with other genders change as well they have to be more cautious but you already know that. What we want to talk to you about is how you have to deal with it considering your not an omega in other's eyes and due to your body size. Dad step in saying " you have to be extra care full take your medicine everywhere and try your hardest to keep in control of your body. We all experience lust and need and omega have that amplified by 100. We know you need an alpha care  and love. We know your going to want them to want you and we know that you will go through a lot. But you need to stay strong and be as much of a beta or alpha you can to try and push suspicion out the door to accomplish your dreams champ. It will be tough and there will be ignorant people, kind people and handsome guys but you must not engage trust or tell them even if it's Asher. They emphasized his name making me put my head down and blush. It's not like I was but it's still annoying to hear it. I wanted to become lead scouter so I wasn't going to tell anyone I said. I'm going to try my best to protect me and I well become a lead scouter.
  

Authors note
I swear it well get better.