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I need to vent, so if you don't care about me, then don't read. I couldn't care less at this point. These past few days have been rough of me and I just need some ears and open arms. Yesterday was my two month anniversary with my girlfriend.... I haven't heard from her in three days.. I went to Universal and I get forced on a rollercoaster, even tho they know I'm afraid of them. I barely get to do what I want whenever we go and they wonder why I look like I'm not having fun. So the day goes on, still nothing from my girlfriend and I'm waiting outside if a rollercoaster with a friend of mine and my heart starts to beat really fast.. I didn't understand why. So we go and are about to do this Jimmy Fallon simulator ride and when we get there my chest feels really tight. Thennn we're leaving the park and my heart starts beating even faster and it was getting hard to breathe and I started to get nervous because my inhaler wasn't working for me. So then I start crying which makes things worse. A man from security comes over and calls a paramedic who helps me and it turns out I was having a really bad panic attack. I still don't know why, but I thought I was about to die. So I get taken away in a wheelchair. And that night, I had a dream that I had come out to my parents, but I never got to finish the dream, so I never saw their reactions. I got curious and I decided I would actually come out the next day (today) After stalling a bit after my dad came home from work, I finally told them.... They think I'm just confused and I don't know what I want, just because I didn't know how to explain things to them for them to understand it better.. So yeah, my life's just dandy right now. I've cried like five times already, great record and yeah thanks for listening to my Ted Talk.

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