First born daughter
First time father
Holding me for the first time
The relationship was a dream to his heart
I couldn't see his facial expressions
Yet
His touch was beautiful
You showed me off to your mother
First time grandmother
Spoiled the fuck out of me with gifts
My 1st birthday
Held my hands to walk in front of you
First steps
Taught me my ABCs & 123s
First day of school
You seen me in Cap & Gown
But, why not Middle or High school
I was torn apart from you
Torn apart our relationship
Torn apart a promise you were supposed to keep close to your heart
Must be nice to share that Father's Day love everyday.
You found out I came out the closet
You disowned me
No words
Just anger that was exchanged
You didn't have to accept who I was cause I don't care.
I just wanted you to be there for me at my darkest hour.
I smoke the pain you caused away
I drink to forget about you when your birthday comes.
You say that "I'm doing good for myself "
But, failed to see what I've done
I'm 21 years old now
Damn, time does fly by
I hate it when I think about the good times
Your daughter misses you
She doesn't even have a number to call
She needs you back in her life
Hug her as tight as you can
& let her show the pain she's in through her tears
She hopes you understand the pain
Build that bond again
attend her events
Cause she'll never be happy knowing you were gone too long .
