All day I spend waiting
All day my work I'm delaying
All day with phone by my side
Just incase a call is what you decide
But that's never the case
Unless I insist
But then when we FaceTime
You always seem pissed
You don't want to talk
You don't have the time
Those are the thoughts that run through my mind.
I say it's ok,
We can try again later
But when later comes
You've another excuse
And later's always forgotten
Until I break a fuse.
You said that you'd call
It was my graduation
I shouldn't have hoped
You ended up with a situation
You were mad, you were angry
And took it out on me
And I let it happen
I just want you to be happy.
"I'm a shitty boyfriend"
You tell me again
But I tell you you're wrong
A lie on my end.
You say you mistreat me
I won't tell you you're right
I'll pretend that I'm happy
Until you start a fight.
"I'm sorry I'm a bad girlfriend"
You don't tell me I'm wrong
You agree and tell me that we can move on
I'm a shitty girlfriend?
Yet for you so hard I try?
Do you know how many nights I'm up crying?
Crying because you're struggling with school
Crying because you called yourself a fool
Crying because you're mad at me again
For something stupid
Blown out of proportion on your end.
The next morning I write you,
A long message of love
And an apology
Wrote down all I could think of
To tell you my feelings and make things all better
Your message was short
It held no emotion
When I ask how you are you pretend all is fine
But you never ask me how am I.
If I didn't text you
Would you ever text me?
Or would there be silence
Going on for infinity?
If I didn't send you a message
Would you worry at all?
Is that what I have to do?
Just to get a fucking call...
