Ambitions and Love war

This is why they did this to *us*

Racism, inequality, discrimination, slavery, violence..

I'm just like why did all these things have to exist?! Why couldn't we all live without such negativity? Why couldn't we help one another succeed? Because if you see it in this way : if we are all helping one another gain success then we are all winners, right?
Why should we be jealous of others? Not only be jealous but actually go ou of our way to go and ruin people's lives.

I alwas have been the type of person who didn't really care or take the time to judge people. Honnestly, I dnt see how that actually benefits anyone in amy way.

So when I met my boyfriend few years ago, little did I know that my family and relatives might be so unsupportive of my dream. It has been very hard these last years. I know you might be thinking which couple doesn't face obstacles in life ?
But it's just so ridiculous to me that my own parents would do such a vile and cruel thing to me when , as typical that might sound, I only fell in love with someone. I'm not a criminal. He happens to be the person to which I feel extremely close. My boyfriend is more than a "boyfriend" to me. He's my friend, my companion and that person to whom you go whenever you need something.

And yes, why is racist or extremism related to all of this,you might ask?
My parent are being so unsupportive and punishing me because the man that I love is from another religion..!

When I found out how insensitive my mother was being to me about this, I was just surprised and disappointed.
She took away my phone and kept bothering me all the time. She kept saying things to me all day when I was at home. It was not as if I was not emotionally stressed and drained because I couldn't even talk to my love ,that she had to push me further down !

Okay hold on, this might seem.as a typical situation where the parents punishe their child for doing something that felt wrong atleast to them but it certainly did not feel normal or a humane thing to do.

I was so stressed, I felt powerless, imprisoned,angry and frustrated. I felt like crying all the time. It was as if life was actually taking away everything that I have always wanted : my lover.

I was deprived of happiness. I couldn't enjoy or do the simplest tasks such as eating ! Emotional stress gives me food aversion and I feel like sleeping all the time so that I can escape this misery. I grieved everyday that I couldn't talk to him as I would normally do and meet him. I feel so guilty and I felt so weird and very awkward that my parents are controlling my social life. I mean, I am a very strong person in the way that I don't really let what people think of me, get to me.
But at the same time, I didn't have my phone and I felt useless because I couldn't be there as much as I would wanted when he needed me and wanted to talk and be with me. This feeling of not being able to be there for him or not being able to make him happy really hurts me. It might not matter to other people but to me it's part of my personality and how I identify and see myself. And it just bothers me a lot when someone's trying to play with that even if you're my parent, there's a certain way of doing things and treating people.

The way that they invaded my privacy and handled the situation so insensitively injured me for life becauase messing with people's feelings is not a joke to me. That's not acceptable.