Next Door // Colby Brock BOOK TWO

Chapter 13

Hayden

I woke up the next morning with Colby laying beside me, not cuddling this time. We stayed up late just talking about things. He listened as I talked about everything I needed to get out and he even shared a big himself. The rest of the night we stayed up talking about everything and nothing, until we both fell asleep.

After our talk, I realized that I have to get my shit together and so something with my life. One thing I knew is that I didn't want to work at Starbucks anyone. So I sent them a mail that I am quitting. And when I'm actually supposed to go back to work, is when I'm done there, so it matches.

What I need to do now is finding something that I actually want to do. Colby said something about YouTube, but I'm not sure if that is something I would like to do. And what are people going to say when I suddenly make a YouTube channel, without the baby I was supposed to have. I'm not ready to tell the world yet and Colby is really nice about it.

"Colby?" I asked, my voice was small, but he noticed and turned around to look at me. My heart almost melted when I saw his face, he looked amazing, I couldn't help but smile.

"What is it?" He asked and got closer to me, I looked at him for a few moments before I shook my head .

"Oh... I just wanted to see if you were awake." I lied and dragged the blanket closer to my face. Colby looked at me with a stern look and I knew he didn't believe me. "Alright." I huffed in defeat. "Why didn't you leave last night? I fell asleep before you." My voice was timid, like I was afraid to say something wrong. Is this really what my life has become?

"Actually... I didn't want to leave you alone." Colby said and put his arm around my lower back as we both laid in my bed. "Also because I feel bad for just walking out on you like that. I feel really bad." Colby had a sad look on his face and I guess mine was mutual.

"Yeah, it was kinda rude." I said with a small smile; Colby chuckled and just smiled while looking at me. Which made warmth spread through my body.

"You really are something else." He chuckled and dragged me closer to him. And I guess we stayed like that, spooning.

Later that day...

Colby left and I was yet again alone, Amanda was also out so I had the apartment to myself. Since I was going to get my life together, I got up from my bed, took a shower and put on a clean outfit. I for the first time since we went out, I put on some makeup. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked somewhat decent.

I looked around the apartment and tried to decide what I should do next, but my brain was empty. I had no idea what I should do, usually I just work. But I quit and I'm not supposed to be working for a few more weeks.

It didn't take long before I decided to go to a mall, shopping is always a great way to release stress. Unless you're like me and spend to much money and end up more stressed. Therefore I decided on a spending limit before I went down to the garage.

On the way I listened to party music to just get my mind on something else, my depressive thoughts was not going to ruin my day.

When I got to the mall I tried for at least five minutes to find a parking spot and when I finally did, I rushed to get it before someone else took it.

It took me a few moments before I got out of the car and headed inside, but when I did, a small smile crept upon my face. I'm not really a person that goes shopping a lot, but on days like this I always feel better when I'm spending some money.

I was about to enter a store when I saw a familiar blond girl a few meters away from me, I stopped and tried to see if that actually was who I thought. The girl let out a loud laugh and I knew right away that it was Nancy. My smile grew and I walked over to her.

"Oh god, Hayden!" Nancy squealed and pulled me in to a hug, I laughed and hugged her back. "It's been so long, how are you?" She asked me, the girl she was taking to told us she had to leave and then it was just the two of us.

"Been better, but I'm working on it." I smiled and scratched the back of my neck. "I finally quit the job though." I told her and she just chuckled.

"That's great, so what are your plans now?" She asked as we began walking, not really knowing where we were going.

I thought about it for a few seconds before answering. "I have no idea, but something that might make me feel less sad all the fucking time." I said and she nodded, knowing what I meant.

"What about YouTube? You told me once that you was interested in that." Nancy said. "Oh and should we get a coffee?" She asked and pointed at a coffee shop that was a few feet away from us, I nodded and we headed inside.

"I don't know, it sounds interesting, but with all of Colby's fans, I'm not sure about it." I told her honestly as we stood in line to order. Nancy nodded and thought for a moment.

"It it because of the baby?" She asked me right as the barista started talking to us. So instead of answering, we both ordered our coffees and waited for them to be done before talking more about the subject.

When we sat down at a table with our coffees, Nancy gave me a look, waiting for me to answer her question. "Well yeah it's because of the baby, I'm not sure if I'm ready to show the world that I lost it." I said and took a big sip, which hurt my mouth a little bit. Nice.

"But don't you think his fans deserve to know?" She asked and I shrugged. Maybe they also should know, they are a big part of his life and it would be harder if they found out themselves.

"I guess you're right, I'll talk to him later." I told her and looked down, and started thinking about how I was supposed to do it. Should I post something on Instagram about it? Should he make a video? I really don't know how this is supposed to work.