(UNDER SERIOUS RECONSTRUCTION) Troubled Love(TicciMask)

Forgiven but Forgotten

Toby's Pov

I hit the alarm that had been going off for way too long that morning, irritated by the sound. I'd been up for all hours of the night again and had been waiting for everyone else to wake up. So far, no luck. I groaned and sleepily rubbed my eyes, realizing I'd have to get up some time so I might as well get up now. As my feet touched the floor I felt the thing that everyone else described as 'cold'. But thanks to my broken nervous system, I feel nothing.

Physical at least, I wish it worked for mental feelings too. Or maybe just a switch that I could turn on and off as I please, things to forget, things to remember, turn off my feelings. Maybe if I could do that I wouldn't have fallen for him. Or maybe somehow he'd still make me fall in love with him. I walked over to the window and pulled it open. It was 6 am and way too bright to be morning, considering that everything was so dark. All thanks to him.

I closed the window and headed downstairs, finally retreating from my cold, empty room. Once I got downstairs I saw just what I expected to see, nothing and nobody. I hated the silence but I chose to ignore it and groggily made my way to the kitchen. The moment I opened the door, I saw him. He was making coffee and looking down at his file, like usual. Before I could retreat he looked up at me with those dark black eyes. I swallowed hard and opened my mouth to say hello but what came out was almost a whimper.

"H-Hey, Masky," I choked out, wanting to punch myself for even talking to him.

He only nodded and murmured, "Good morning Toby."

He had acknowledged me, sure, but something deep inside hurt me, having him respond so coldly. That's all I have to expect from him I guess. I sat down at the table and watched the masked man make his coffee. He looked the same but he was different, the way he acted, the way he spoke, to me especially! Did I do something to him? Was he mad at me? If so, what for? My head started to hurt from the thoughts swirling like a storm in my head. Luckily my thoughts were interrupted by a coffee mug hitting the table and Masky sitting on the opposite end of me. He wasn't avoiding me, he'd still sit next to me, but why was he acting so out of character?! I was so confused!

Flashback to a few days ago (end of the last chapter)

Toby's Pov
I woke up from a lack of warmth and lack of comfort. I sleepily opened my eyes and looked around the room, it was bright so it must have been morning. I smiled, remembering the occurrences that happened the night before. I looked around the room for my masked partner but he was nowhere to be found. My smile faded, why had he left? Was there something wrong? Did he have another episode? Thoughts swirled in my brain, none of them good. They all stopped when Masky opened the door, his mask was off and I felt my face heat up as he came closer. I just wanted to pull him close and hug him for hours. I wanted to share the warmth he had like I did last night! I wanted that again! 

I stretched my arms out to embrace the masked man but he didn't come any closer. He only stood there, looking through his files. My arms fell to my sides once again. Maybe I'd interrupted him while he was working? Then why did he come into my room? Maybe he wants to take a break and cuddle or check up on me? My eyes widened, I mentally smacked myself for thinking that! What the hell is wrong with me? I looked back up at Masky and my stomach began to twist, it felt funny and not the good kind.

"Toby," Masky finally said.

"Y-Yes, Masky?" I stuttered, resisting the urge to punch myself.

"The Operator wants us to train together, starting today. So as of today, if we go on jobs for the Operator, we go together. And Hoodie of course." He said this with an unusual tone, not the way Masky usually talks to me.