Love me now

Chapter 7-My

Ahhhhh I am so happy today I can't believe Jonothan It's my BOYFRIEND.
Well he is my boyfriend that is going automatically getting married with me because he doesn't want to lose me .Thats so cute.
I mean what if he wants to break up with me I don't want to make him getting married with me just because he wanted before .I hope everything go ok because I really love him.
Sometimes feeling can change but I hope mine doesn't change.
I mean everything it's not decided yet,It's not official that he is gonna marry me.I hope not.
I love him but I want to take things slowly not a girlfriend and a boyfriend of 18 years old getting married.
For me we are to young to get marry, my parents are stressing out so much I really need they to calm down.
As I said I love Jonothan but marriage it's to much for me now.
Now I just want to focus in myself, my future, my friends,my family and my boyfriend.
I don't have time to marriage right now .
But I am happy that Jonothan is MY love, MY boyfriend,MY best friend technically MY everything.
He is the one that can make me happy in this moment.
But not with the marriage. I want to be a good girlfriend,being a wife it's to much for me.
It looks like someone will need to have the important conversation with the parents and the boyfriend.(separating of course )
I will talk to Jonothan first he can help me explaining everything to my parents. And that's is not the perfect time to get married with Jonothan not just because I don't want and I don't have time it's because I am to young to get married.
I really want a family 2 kids, 1 dog and of course the fantastic dad of my kids.My perfect husband .
But that's not the right timing.
I will focus in what I want I will be an Independent person.
Because we all need to be ourselves and to loved ourselves.
I am so happy to be with Jonothan.
I hope the future let us well.