Just a fan// why don't we

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When we pull into the driveway, we all get out of the bus except for Tyler and eben. They're staying at a friends house tonight to visit. After the party, we're just gonna go to a hotel. "I advise you guys not to drink but I'm not your fucking babysitter so do what you want. Just be careful, okay?" Tyler said. "Okay." Jonah said. "Emma will take care of them if they get drunk. She's an amazing "mom"." Olivia said. I laugh. "Yeah, I guess." I said. "call an Uber when you're done okay? I already booked you guys a hotel room for tonight." Tyler said. Great. So we're in good hands. Now go." Jack said to Tyler. Tyler closes the bus doors and the bus drives off. The boys and Olivia start walking towards the front door but I don't move. I watch through the windows at all the people in there. I can hear the music very clearly from here. It's very crowded in there. Corbyn turns around and notices I'm not behind him. "You coming?" He asked from a distance. "Uh....I don't think so." I said. He walks back down the long driveway to me. "Why not?" He asked. "Parties......crowds......they're not really my thing." I said. Growing up, when my mom took the night shift, my alcoholic father would throw parties with his friends. My dad would order me around and tell me to get his friends beer like I was a waitress. If I didn't do as he said or didn't do it right, he would smack my upside my head or even worse. His friends just sat there and laughed. That's why I get bad vibes from huge parties. The party Olivia threw before we left wasn't big compared to this one. "Come on. It'll be fun." He said. "I don't think so." I said. He sighs. "How about I stay with you all night. Will that be okay?" He asked. I shrug my shoulders. "What if I hold your hand? Will that be okay?" He asked. A smile grows on my face. He smiles and takes my hand. "Let's catch up with the boys." He said. We start running as our fingers interlock. We both laugh as corbyn almost trips. Olivia sees us and smiles. We walk into the house and the anxiety hits me like a truck. I squeeze corbyns hand tighter and he looks at me. "You okay?" He asked. I nod, taking a deep breath. Olivia looks at me, remembering I don't like bug parties like this. "Emma, you okay?" She asked. I nod. Then, I see him. THE Logan Paul. "Is that ma boys?!" He yells over the loud music to the boys. They smile and each dap him up. Corbyn let go of my hand and gave him a hug. "What's up boys?! How have y'all been?!" He asked. "Great! How are you?" Corbyn asked. As he was talking, he completely forgot to hold my hand. I don't know why but holding his hand kinda helped. I shake it off and try not to be anxious. "Hey, what's your name? Logan asked Olivia. She smiles. "I'm Olivia." She said. He smiles. "Hi, Olivia. Come play beer pong with me and my friends." Logan said, holding out his hand. She smiles and takes his hand. "Okay." She said. He bites his lip and they walk away. I look at Zach. He rolls his eyes. "You don't think they're gonna do anything, right?" I asked him. "They better not." He said. I smile. He likes her. He actually likes her! "Let's take shots!" Jonah said. "Lets do it!" Daniel said. Corbyn walks away with jack, Zach, Jonah, and Daniel to the kitchen. "Come on." He said, holding out his hand again. I smile and take his hand. He pulls me through the crowd and into the kitchen. The kitchen is crowded too. "Hey, boys! How are you guys?!" Someone I don't recognize asked the boys, yelling over the loud music. "Hey, man! We've been great! How have you been?!" Jack asked him, yelling also. The music is so loud. "Amazing!" The guy said. "Wanna take shots?" Daniel asked. He smiles. "Hell yeah." He said. All the boys take a shot class from the cabinet. "Here." Corbyn said, handing me one. "I don't drink." I said. "Oh yeah. I forgot." He said. He put it back as other people join in. "Ready? Bottoms up!" One girl said. They all take a shot. "Woooo! Let's do more!" Jonah said. I start to get nervous and play with my fingers as more people start crowding the kitchen. I try to stay near corbyn or the guys but I keep getting pushed. I end up not even able to see the boys. I look in the dining room and see Olivia. "Hey." I said. "Hey, Emma!" She said. She's drunk. I can tell. "Hey, Emma!" Logan said, repeating her. His arms are around her and his hand is on her ass. I just walk away awkwardly. I'm better off alone than watching him touch an underage girl. If he tries anything tonight I swear to god. I sigh and walk over to the couch. I sit down and lean my head back. I close my eyes for a second. "Nice night, right?" I hear a boy say from beside me. I open my eyes and immediately jump back. "Miss me?" He asked. "What the fuck are you doing here, Kevin?" I asked, scared and confident. He's the guy that's been stalking me my whole life. "I came to party. Why are you here? I know you hate huge crowds." He said. "Just stay away from me. Please." I said. He shakes his head. "Saying please doesn't make me go away, Emma." He said. "Then what does?" I asked. He gets closer to me. I try to move back but I can't anymore. "A kiss....or a make out...or sex!" He said getting too excited. "No. Definitely not." I said. "Why? It's not like you haven't had sex with Jake already." He said talking about my boyfriend. "That's none of your business." I said. "Oh, but it is. If you want me to leave you alone." He said. I sigh. "What do I need to do?" I asked. I don't want him to start messing with the boys or Olivia. "Kiss me." He said. I sigh. "Fine." I said. He gasps. "Really?! You really will?!" He asked. I nod. He smiles and gets closer to me. I sigh. I can't believe I'm doing this. "Close your eyes." I said. He closes his eyes. I was gonna just run away but I feel like that'll make it even worse. I put my hand on his cheek and lean in. I close my eyes, trying to imagine Jake but it doesn't work. I still feel like I'm kissing Kevin, a fucking psycho stalker. I give him a little peck on the lips but before I could pull away, he grabs me and starts making out with me. I try to pull away but I feel like that'll make it worse for me. I just make out with him. It's disgusting cause he's clearly never kissed a girl. He's getting spit all over my face because he's trying to use tongue but he's licking my lips and stuff. It's just disgusting. "Emma-" I hear someone say but quickly stop. I stop kissing Kevin and look to see who called my name. It's corbyn. He looks at me, kinda mad, and walks away. "Shit." I said in a whisper. "Wow, Emma. That was....amazing." He said. "Don't fucking come near me again." I said, getting up from the couch and walking away. "Corbyn!" I said as I see him walking into the crowded kitchen. "Corbyn!" I said, catching up to him. He turns around. "Hey." I said. "Hi." He said with an attitude. I'm confused. "Um....please ignore what you saw back there." I said. "What? You sucking some kids face?" He asked. "Uh....yeah." I said. He rolls his eyes and chuckles, madly, walking away. Why is he mad at me? I push my way through the crowd. I feel my chest getting tight and not really being able to breathe. I walk back into the living room which isn't that crowded. I see Kevin. He looks at me and smiles. "Emma, can I just say that you're so amazing. You're so kind and funny and beautiful. I love you." He said. "Please stop talking to me." I said. "But you kissed me." He said. "Yeah, cause I want you to leave me the fuck alone! You broke the promise, Kevin! Stop talking to me!" I yell at him. I watch as his heart slowly breaks. "You don't like me?" He asked. "No! You're a fucking psycho stalker! Leave me alone!" I yell. I walk away and into the crowd of dancing people. I try to get past but they keep pushing me or getting close to me. I try my hardest to breathe but I can't. Once I get past the crowd, I start to remember everything. My father hates me, that stalker kid hates me, corbyn hates me. Everyone hates me. I walk into the bathroom and close the door. I sit down on the floor and catch my breath. Instead of crying like a little baby about it, I'm gonna talk to corbyn. I need to talk to him. I stand up and walk out of the bathroom with confidence. I'm not gonna be shy. I'm not gonna get anxious. I'm gonna do this. I see him in the kitchen taking more shots. Like, a lot of shots. "Corbyn." I said, touching his arm. He turns and looks at me, his eyes are barely opened. "You alright?" I asked. "I'm fucking amazing!" He said. I laugh. He's very drunk. "So you're not mad at me?" I asked. "Well, I was mad at first because you were making out with a random kid instead of me." He said. WHAT?! "What?" I asked laughing. He laughs. "Let's dance!" He said completely disregarding that last sentence. "I don't know if I should." I said. He grabs my hand. "It'll be fun." He said. He pulls me to the dance floor with all the other boys. They're all dancing with beers in their hands. They all pull me into the little circle they formed with just them. I laugh and jump around stupidly, just like them. The song is pretty great too. The boys are all drunk so they're tripping and stuff. I laugh as Jonah falls on the ground. I help him up as I laugh so much that I can't breathe. I'm actually having a lot of fun. But I wish Olivia was over here but whatever.

       About an hour later, I stop dancing and sit on the couch. The boys are doing whatever. Talking to girls, dancing, i don't know. I look around to see if Kevin is still here. He's nowhere to be found. Thank god. I can't believe he followed me all the way out here. As I think, I slowly start to fall asleep.

           "Emma." I hear as someone shakes me a little bit. I open my eyes and see Jonah. "I wanna leave." He said. I sit up and rub my eyes. "Why? Are you alright?" I asked. "I puked. Like, a lot. All over Logan's bathroom." He said. I laugh. "Did you clean it up?" I asked. "No. That's why I wanna go." He said. I laugh. "It's not funny! He's gonna be mad at me!" He said. "He won't be mad." I said. I take out my phone and call an Uber. He sits down on the couch next to me, laying his head back. "I'm gonna pass out." He said. "Don't pass out. I'll get Olivia and the boys and we can go, okay?" I asked. He nods as I see him falling asleep. I get up off the couch and walk into the living room. I push past the crowd of people and find the boys. "Guys, we're leaving!" I yell over the music. "Why?! The parties just getting started!" Daniel said. "Jonah wants to go." I said. "Ugh fine." Daniel said. Him and the boys all follow me into the kitchen. I see Olivia and Logan making out. One hand is on her butt and one is on her boob. "Hey!" I said, smacking his arm. They stop kissing. "Oh, hey!" Olivia said with a smile. "Come on. Let's go." I said. "Why?" She asked. "She can just stay here tonight." Logan said. "No. Fuck no." I said. "Why not?" Logan asked. I roll my eyes and pull Olivia away from him. She's clearly very drunk. "Bye bye!" She said to Logan. He buys his lip and waves. I roll my eyes and walk back into the living room to get Jonah. He's passed out on the couch. "Jonah." I said shaking him. He doesn't move at all. "Jonah!" I say again, shaking him harder. He groans. "Come on. You wanna sleep in a comfy bed?" I asked. He opens his eyes and nods. I grab his hand and help him up. He can barely walk. We walk outside and to the Uber I called 10 minutes ago. We all get in. Olivia sits in the front, corbyn, Jack, and Daniel sit in the middle, and me, Jonah, and Zach sit in the back. Jonah lays his head on my shoulder and closes his eyes. "Can we have a dance party when we get to the hotel?" Zach asked. "Yes can we?" Jack asked. "I don't know, guys. It's getting late and Jonah wants to sleep." I said. "You're no fun." Daniel said, crossing his arms. I laugh. "Let's have a sing off. Right here. Right now." Corbyn said. The boys all start singing in harmony, besides Jonah, of coarse. I smile and listen as we pull into the parking lot of the hotel. I tap Jonah's shoulder and he slowly picks his head up. I laugh because he's so cute and helpless hahahha. We all get out of the car one by one. "Have a good night, sir." I said to the Uber driver as I closed the door. I have him 5 stars for putting up with us. The boys stumble and trip over their own feet as we walk into the hotel. I go up to the front desk and ask for the key. She asked me so fill out information too. As I'm doing that, the boys start hitting each other and stuff. "Hey! Stop!" I said to them as I filled out the papers. I finished and we get into the elevator. "I feel like a babysitter." I said. "Are you calling me a baby?!" Jack said. They all laugh. "Yes I am!" I said, laughing. "I might have to hit you with a pillow." He said when we walk off the elevator. "Do it. I dare you." I said. He smiles. "It's coming when you least expect it." He said. I look at the time as we get to our hotel room. It's 3:00AM. I'm not really that tired. I get the key from my pocket and open the door. I'm the first one in so I turn on the lights. It's so nice in here. The boys walk in and run right to the fridge. Jonah goes straight to a bed and lays down, not even bothering to get under the covers. I walk into the kitchen to see what the boys are doing. "I'm so hungry!" Corbyn yells. "Me too!" Zach said. "Let's just eat this candy." Daniel said pulling out sour patch kids. Corbyn grabs them and runs into the bedroom, and onto a bed. All the boys run after him. "Hey! That's mine!" Daniel yelled. "Catch me if you can." Corbyn said jumping off the bed and running into the bathroom. "Hey! Share." I said taking them out of corbyns hand. I split them between the four boys. I really feel like a babysitter.

          I haven't heard from Olivia in a while. Not even in the car. I walk out of the bathroom and into the bed room. I see her laying down on a bed. I walk up to her and smile. "Hey." I said. "Hi." She said back. "Are you alright?" I asked. She sighs. "Yeah. I guess." She said. "Tell me what's wrong." I said. She sits up and looks at me. "My mom just called me." She said. "So, what's wrong?" I asked her. She pauses for a second. A tear falls down her face. "what?" I asked, really wanting to know. "It's your mom." She said.