You're Just A Boy

BE WHOLE AGAIN (Bonus Part)

i could write all the curses i want to throw at you.
i could plan the bloodiest death for you.
i could storm off at your house and slap you.
i could shame you through social media just to let the whole world know you're an asshole.

but all of these are in my head, overthinking with countless sleepless nights.

i am so mad at you that, in the process, i'm breaking myself.

everything ended when we broke up but the pain, so deep, still haunts me.

i am not in my usual self anymore. i believed i am a strong girl, but i'm not because why did i let this happen to myself?

but don't worry i learned a lot.

i should love myself more.
i should not hurry things up and wait for god's perfect time.
i should trust god more for he knows everything.
i should be with my family more.
i should help those who are lost.

i can enumerate all the lessons i've learned when you left but the most important thing is,

i should not regret loving because loving someone is never a mistake. love is the most beautiful thing, but when your love isn't reciprocated then it is not yours to keep. save your love for someone who deserves it. do not be afraid to walk away from a bad relationship. do not blame yourself for your heartache. BE WHOLE AGAIN.