PURE LOVE

Lost contact and disappear Part 4

After disappearing from view I went back to the car and when I entered there was an envelope in my seat and I took it, what do I say to myself. His front writing "for my the best wife" behind him was written "your husband only" I immediately put it in the bag and was silent in the car waiting for them and to go home. On the way home I didn't say much, "there's no need to think too much about the importance of being able to live a life, and hopefully giving birth to a cute child can entertain us, hopefully his father will keep his promise to see his child. Aamiin "said my brother, yes I said God willing.

Arriving at home I immediately entered my treatment room, hm was clean and comfortable even though it wasn't as large as the hotel that I stayed twelve days. I opened the envelope, suddenly this card fell hsbc atm with written paper no. id, on behalf of the account, the number of balances per day, no.pin, and there is a savings book. What does it mean,My dearst wife, this is for you. You can use for anything and the our children. I am back home but I don't know when I came to you. It is not simple but trust to you always wait for me. If I old came to you are you still want accept to me? I beg you, don't forgot me. I love you till the end. And please always prayer for me every day. Darling please tell my children about me. I can't continuous writer this letter, I hope you still love me and stay for me. Your husband always love you."

folded the letter neatly and put it in an envelope, I paused for a moment. This is a new chapter in my life in a state of pregnancy and I have to live it myself, do I have to tell my children and my siblings so that they do not prejudice negatively on my husband.

When I wanted to fold the envelope there was a hard object, I opened the envelope again, there was a key and a small paper, the bank for the safe in the hsbc Bank samarinda, you must open. Don't go you can go with your son, darling I miss you. I wonder why he is so open and all for me and his child, does he think he can die there. Oh no, God protect my servant's husband from evil people, he feels threatened and good security is with me, meaning that the safe must be opened to take its contents.

It's still early, I'm now at the bank before it's too late. With a little talk I went with Deny and was accompanied by my brother-in-law. Go to the bank, I go down by myself with a shoulder bag to make it look like nothing. After a stale with the teller section and the CS section, I entered the safe section. I opened my eyes to Allah, I didn't have time to think that I put everything in my bag, only the contents of the file I didn't know, but I put it in, I finished it, I'm afraid this will make him difficult. I could barely breathe, because I was nervous and worried about him. Until I parked speed home but did not use normal roads, I passed a long way, because when I went to the parking lot I saw a man of two people I had seen in a hotel, fortunately he did not see me, because I veiled closed, I also happened to use a black car during my stay in Samarinda my husband and staff only saw another car.

When I got home I talked to my eldest son, so that later that evening after Izal had a closed meeting at my room, so my brother was not involved and didn't know. "What's wrong," said Dijah, I answered "I'll just let all know, because mama is busy for this meeting, so first yes." Yes he said. "And please do not open the door for anyone who comes because there is a dangerous suggestion, the fence is locked first, whoever is not opened, try telling them via sms. "As long as here, the staff is often here?" I asked, being reminded to remember, then calling the waitres "Ma'am as long as mom is not at home who often comes here to try to remember."

"hm ma'am, that person is here once, he came here four people in the afternoon, I said you are out of town again, it's okay I just want to see this house is also a land, also ask who just lives here. I said I did not know because I came home late in the afternoon, quite a long time here until I gave you a drink, if not mistaken last Friday, mother. "I said yes and warned, do not open the door to anyone, later evening, go home and go, I said again, yeah mom. I'm getting nervous, do I have to call my husband, where do I text, can I call important. About three minutes the phone rang, "Thank God you can call me, a position where" I asked, answered with a voice that I did not know, it was not him and then I answered, only I was worried because it was dark today, be careful.

I said answered yes. It's not him, there's no way he could answer it and his voice. I face this practically myself, I put the plastic from the safe so it won't be noticeable and I will check it later when it's calm. I became even more paranoid every time there was a sound of vehicles passing in front of the house, I was really scared, so I kept my files and atmosphere somewhere, went to sleep at night I told my youngest son to accompany me. Today morning until tonight I am very busy and very scared. I didn't dare to see a doctor, then I thought I didn't want things to happen that made my birth problem.

"Ma is the meeting."

"So, mom is confused, there is someone who oversees us, I'm afraid. So, let's just calm down until it's conducive, but this must be known this week. ok yes

"Yes already, but be careful not to tell us anything,"

Nearly midnight I could not close my eyes, suddenly there was an SMS with the clock printed at 4 am, just sent now. Indeed the text message is silent, the text says:

Honey after read you must delete, okay. And following the instruction, "Don't call me back this phone number. You must careful and don't trust anybody , From this day my salary I sent to your account. And you must take cash all up, the money don't transfer or over booking. You save the money in another bank you use your name because you are business women.You change phone number.Am this now in the danger situation"

Honey be careful, I love you very much, from this now the phone I turn off and you don't on your phone I just worried about you. I hope we meet soon. Darling please prayer for me anytime ya. 

I was shocked and sad until he was, no matter where he is now. Well God protect him to deliver him to his destination safely and bring him back to me Yes Allah aamiin. Before I delete this sms I send a copy to my old cellphone so that it is not tracked and then I delete it. Throughout the night I prayed for her with anxiety, and FB began to open to be able to follow the updated news. Because all this time I have included the following intent and active being the first news I must have known first, usually this morning there was news. When I was browsing there was a notification coming in and I read: One of the Secretary of State had returned from the remote service trip for twelev days and was in ill condition and the staff who accompanied him were also sick because they had bad weather stranded far from the city so some physical days were weak.

The camera beam I saw he was sick but not physically weak, the condition was out of battle. And his eyes didn't like his staff, of course there was a connection with his staff, and when he saw the reporter's camera he smiled as if looking at me. Gosh dear don't make me afraid, and I have been warned not to call waiting for him to call or give word, I obey him hopefully he is protected.

I sit pensively, what skits do I face now, do I have to lose him again, or what's behind this. Am I wrong to love him who has a wife Yes Allah I do not know at all, give me a pointer and strength to survive, I puke my stomach dear help mami face all this and pray for your father to return to us aamiin.

Every night I cry it feels heavy I face it alone how should I Yaa Allah, I can only see it when we are married, and I can not do anything because I have to follow him do not follow my phone even though I want to.

It has been a month since he returned to his country, and I have also put together with my children the real situation and situation, they are shocked and very concerned. And they agreed that whatever happened to their younger siblings who were still in my birth they would enlarge together; Honestly, I don't want to tell them about the funds my child is carrying out, I'll someday tell them, and the files from the bank have been arranged and cured.

Aside from political files, there was also a letter on land tenure, the one I didn't understand was that the number of diamonds in the size box was in his box, written my name, for my princess wife Rina, I wish to see you like a queen I love you darling. There are also letters that I sent to him. When he prepares this, I am truly sad as much as he loves me so that he is willing to live suffering and endure all his financial limitations. I am determined to persevere and fight for my children who are in the womb to make them useful human beings who have smart and sufficient character. Insha Allah.