One cut for being hopeless
Two for wanting to die
Five for feeling like nothing
Ten for not being able to try
Twenty for losing my sanity
Fifty for eating today
Eighty for not staying strong
A hundred to make the pain go away
Two hundred for being dishonest
Five hundred for losing their trust
Eight hundred for losing myself
A thousand for insisting ‘I must’
Two thousand for not being happy
Five thousand for being so weak
Eight thousand for lying so often
Ten thousand for not being able to speak
Fifty thousand for not being myself
A hundred thousand, it’s not a lot
Five hundred thousand, I’m sick and tired….Fuck it
A million…..sure, why not?
