ticci toby x male reader

Part 2

Your Pv stupid
I guess you could say things would be better if I left home but you I really don't know would the torment leave would the memory of you disappear or would you still be here mom you always did hate he blamed me for dads death but i blame myself to so maybe it really is my fault and when I'm gone do your words and accusation not matter to me anymore after that will I finally be happy and free what will happen to me then I am unsure because I'll probably never know even when she dies am I still a "monster" I am still just as"worthless and useless" or do I change into something better like her death might change me but no matter what she does and what she says I still couldn't kill her because at the end of the day she still my mom but then again she the person who hurt me everyday and kept me in a dungeon for a mouth where i forgot the days I forgot what I even did to get in and why I couldn't fix it no matter what I tried and mommy was never happy around me when she was with daddy she was scared and with her friends and the church she seemed to be stressed and looked fake like she had to pretend she was alright to make it though maybe it worked for her but never did for me maybe it's because I was to damaged to pretend I was okay I couldn't stop thinking that maybe mommy was right and I was a monster I should just sleep I don't really wanna go home though so I'll sleep by the forest edge and tomorrow I'll run away till I see a better place.
I'm just realising how much of a sad story kinda writer I am but I guess it's just my personality. (327 words)