What if

Chapter One

I look outside and I see that it's raining and it brings a smile to my face despite of all that has happened.
Before I can have another thought I reach the front of my house, unlock it and enter my house. I look around and apparently no one is home.
But I do find some money on my desk along with a note saying:

Dear Cyra,
Honey I am sorry but I had an urgent meeting so I had to leave town, I will be back in 2 days. Lunch is in the fridge, I left you some money to buy food. Don't starve yourself out of laziness.
~Mom

I remember mom talking to someone about this yesterday but I didn't ask her because I was supposed to be sleeping at that time.
I take the money and keep it in my mini purse then inside my bag. I look at the time. 2:14pm. Shit. I should leave or I will be late!

I go to my room wear my sweat t-shirt and tights, take my bag and my keys and run to the bus stop. I stand there and see the bus coming towards the stop and take a deep breath. I am not late. Good. Or I would have been good as dead.

I get on the bus and spot Smiley Danny smilin', what a surprise! And then I smile back at him and sat on the seat he saved for me. We have a deal, I save him from the bullies in the bus and he saves me a seat.

I am looking at the rain, smiling and listenin' to "Comethru" by Jeremy Zucker on repeat when someone touches my shoulder and I turn to look at the person and I freeze. I ducking freeze. It's him. Him.
What is he doing here?!?
He says, "Excuse me, can you keep your bag on your lap?"
Then I see that the only place that is empty is right next to me, not really empty considering I kept my bag on it, I like to keep the top of my bag under my arms and the rest on the seat. Ughh I have to keep the whole bag on my lap now. I am Soo lucky. So damn lucky.

I the say calmly than I thought I would, "Yeah sure" and keep my bag on my lap.
I look outside again ignoring him. I think he looked at me once or twice... Who knows? He does.
I keep thinking about why couldn't he just stand? Why sit next to me? Ugly fat me. I keep saying it to myself even when I know, deep down that I am not that ugly. Everyone in school doesn't think that I am, but I don't care. I am ugly and it's a fact.
My forehead then starts to pain so I keep my earphones inside my bag and stand up as I see my stop coming from my window.
I turn to face him to tell him to move but he is standing up himself and heading towards the doors of the bus.
Wha- Why the hell is he getting off here?!

My eyes widen in confusion and surprise, the bus then suddenly stops and I wince as I twist my ankle. I know I winced pretty loud cause almost everyone in the bus is looking at me now, including him.