{this part gets a bit sad so yeah xoxo}
*a few weeks later*
*Emma's POV*
Me and Ethan have been getting closer over the last few weeks and I feel like I can tell him everything. He's really sweet as well. I didn't expect it from him to be honest, I thought he was just a fuck boy but maybe I was wrong.
I was just about to talk to Ethan and ask if he wanted to order some food when I got a call from my step dad, john.
*on the phone*
stepdad~hi Emma, I have something very important to talk to you about.
emma~John, you're scaring me.
stepdad~well Emma, it's your mum...
emma~no, don't say it.
stepdad~she wasn't able to beat cancer.
I'm so sorry Em, I know how much you love her. I love her too.
I started crying down the phone but then my phone died and so the call ended.
Ethan must have heard me crying cause he came over to my side of the room and knocked on my door.
"Emma?" He said more as a question.
"Are you alright?" He asked as I ignored him, not intentionally, I was just too upset to respond.
"I'm coming in." He said and slowly opened the door. He saw me crying and ran over to me immediately and started hugging me. I started to cry more as I started to realise what had happened, that I won't see my mum again. He held me tighter the more I cried.
"Hey, hey, it's okay, what happened?" He said calmly.
"It's, it's my mum. She, she..err..she didn't beat cancer, um..she..uh..died."
"Ahh it's okay, it's okay. You'll be fine Em, I promise. I know it may sound bad, but it gets better with time, I promise you. I went through the same thing with my dad. You can talk to me whenever you need to, I'm always here. No matter what!" He replied to what I said.
I gave him a small fake smile and said I was going to try and get some sleep.
*the next bit involves touching subjects such as suicide, don't read if it will upset you. No one, for any reason should have to go through anything like this and if you ever get to there point you feel like you want to commit, talk to someone❤️*
When Ethan left I started to process even more the news that I was just given about my mum. I just wanted to be with her. She was the only person that loved me. Yes my friends and stepdad care, but they don't love me like she did. They never will. I just wanted to be with her right now. I wanted to be wherever she was, and if that meant that I had to kill myself then I will. I took a bottle of pills and was about to take some. Before I did, I wrote a message to Ethan, Amanda and Olivia explaining this. I hit send just before I was about to take the pills when Ethan ran into my room.
"Emma!" He exclaimed.
I tried to take them anyway and he knocked them out of my hands.
"No Emma, please don't, for me and all the other people that care about you."
"Why'd you do that?" I asked annoyed.
"Because Emma, me and all your other friends care about you so much and would never want anything to happen to you. Also, who would I tease if not you?" He said and winked, knowing it would make me laugh. I did a small, quiet giggle and thanked him.
"Thanks E." I said and hugged him.
I messaged Amanda and Olivia to tell them that I was fine but before I could even press send they rushed into our dorm to check that I was okay.
I do love my friends.
This part got a bit sad and if any of you are going through anything like this or have any problems, feel free to message us.
~Chloe&Becky xøxø
