Pesy One Shots

Shouldn't you be with him?

Prompt: "Shouldn't you be with him?"

"Shouldn't you be with him?" Perrie asked drily, knocking back the remaining drops of wine in her glass. She should've quit drinking 3 glasses ago, when her head had just started to spin, but she figured if any occasion warranted getting sloppy drunk, it was this one.

Jesy turned her head to look at her now husband. He smiled at her and winked, his mates standing close around him and giving him cheeky grins.

"I have to spend the rest of my life with him, some time with my best friend won't hurt," Jesy said with a smile that didn't seem all that real.

Still, Perrie couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked. She wore a long white, sleeveless dress, the top encrusted in tiny diamonds which shone brightly, even in the dim light. Her red hair was pinned close to her head, a couple of loose curls left out to frame her well made-up face. Perrie couldn't help but remember all the times she'd picked Jesy's hairpins out after a long show, taking the time to run her fingers through her long red tresses. Perrie loved to play with Jesy's hair.

"You only have one wedding though," Perrie said, not even attempting a smile. "One night to celebrate."

A waiter passed with a tray full of glasses and Perrie scooped one up, taking a large gulp. The wine was white, not red like she'd been drinking all night, but it would get her to a blackout just as quickly, so she didn't much care.

Jesy watched her with sad eyes, equal parts heartbroken and annoyed. Heartbroken, because she knew how Perrie felt, and annoyed, because tonight was not about Perrie and her feelings, dammit. Still, she couldn't help but tell Perrie the truth. She at least owed her that.

"I doubt we'll be together forever," she said with a cold laugh. Perrie wondered why the hell Jesy had married him, then, but she didn't tell Jesy that.

"Everything did move sort of quickly, you know. Maybe you just haven't had enough time to be sure he's the one yet."

"Oh, I'm sure he's not the one," Jesy said, the pain evident in her eyes.

"Then maybe you just haven't met the one yet," Perrie said dismissively.

Jesy was silent for a while, absentmindedly playing with a piece of her dress before she whispered, "I have, actually."

Perrie knew she was talking about her. Who else would she be talking about? When they had separated, they'd each had a string of boys in their lives that were nothing more than a little fun between the sheets. At least, that's all they had been for Perrie. Those boys numbed the pain a bit, made her momentarily forget that she was hurting, but not one of them could ever make her forget why. Every time one of those boys looked at her, she'd remember how Jesy used to look at her, toothy smile on her face. She'd remember how her green eyes would glimmer, shining with love and affection. Not even Hatchi, who loved her unconditionally, looked at her like that.

"Then what went wrong between us, Jes?" she asked, unable to hide the break in her voice.

Maybe it was the wine talking, because she had wanted to ask Jesy this question more than once, but had never dared to before tonight. Still, she was glad she'd finally asked, even if it seemed too little too late.

When she looked back,fame was the only answer Perrie could ever come up with, even if it was a piss-poor excuse. Both girls had known that if they went public, there would be hell to pay. Not all the fans would approve, and the paps would write all kinds of lies to make some drama out of it. Still, neither really cared what might happen to them as a result, but they weren't the only ones they had to think about in this situation. They had to think about Jade and Leigh-Anne. That seemed like a moot point now, with Little Mix firmly cemented in their pasts. It felt like ages, but in actuality it had only been about a year since the four girls went their separate ways. Leigh-Anne had been primarily focusing on her fashion line since then, and Jade was plenty busy with her work as an ally to the LGBT-community and being a singer-songwriter, though she tended to do more writing than singing these days. While Jade had simply put singing on the backburner for a while, Perrie had taken a break completely. It felt a bit like she was missing a leg at first, but the spotlight had done a number on her mentally, and she needed a break. She had to take care of her mental health, first and foremost.

Everything had been such a mess when the band had split. She had tried desperately to get back with Jesy, but Jesy denied her every time, seemingly without reason. Now that Little Mix was no more, there was no real reason to hide. But before she knew it, Jesy was engaged to this random man she'd known for a couple of weeks. That was when Perrie had lost the last bit of sanity she had left. She went away for a little while, removing herself from the situation in order to stay alive.

This was her first semi-public appearance in a while, and the first time she'd seen Jesy in months. It had taken her a lot of courage to come here tonight to the wedding.

Courage wasn't the right word though. No, it was hope. Hope that Jesy might change her mind and come to her senses when she stood at the altar and looked at the guests, spotting Perrie.

At least, that's how it would go in some cheesy American rom-com.

"Would you believe me if I say that I don't know either?"Jesy said, speaking so softly Perrie barely heard her.

Perrie only nodded. She knew Jesy didn't want to say what had really happened, that she was unable to acknowledge what had gone wrong.

"Just the wrong place, wrong time, eh?" Perrie said, trying unsuccessfully to smile.

Now it was Jesy's turn to nod. She pulled Perrie in for a hug, burying her face in the blonde's neck.

"I love you," she breathed, unable to keep the croak from her voice, her breath a broken whisper against Perrie's neck.

"I love you too," Perrie said, eyes tearing for what must've been the thousandth time tonight.

Only God knows in which way Jesy meant her declaration, but Perrie liked to believe Jesy still loved Perrie as much as Perrie loved her. But for now, it didn't matter. What mattered was that Jesy was still here, still in her arms, if only for a moment. Married or not, she would always have a special place in Perrie's heart, and no one could ever take that from her.

The end x