Thought that we had made a promise That we would never get this way But all this weight left on our shoulders Too much for the both of us
Nicholas.
I felt so awful coming home. I can't believe I hurt her, when I looked at her arm before she stormed off, a bruise was already forming. It didn't even feel like I was gripping onto her that tight.
And I thought about the fight was had and she was right I was suppose to be the love of her life letting those horrible things happen to her. I was suppose to protect her and I failed. I let Ryan and his group harass and hurt her more than once. I let him and his group touch my girl...and now he's with her. Sitting on the couch I was so disgusted that I couldn't even move. I was so angry that I felt like smoke was coming from me. My fist were balled up and all I could think about was when he hit her, when he tried to force her into sex in that bathroom, when he's cat called her and touched her inappropriately while she was just trying to get food. I was so angry at myself. So fucking angry I wanted to scream.
I put my head in my hands and pull on my hair. Hoping she'd be here to try and stop me from pulling my hair out like she used to. I was so close, but I had to blow up like that when it came to Ryan giving her these drugs. She was losing memory because of it and it was causing her to bleed constantly. I wish calling the police was that easy, but him getting out of jail would be easier. I had to kill him. I didn't have any blood on my hands, but I had to get rid of him.
I had a fight tomorrow and it would get me one step closer to him. I just had to fight him and kill him in the boxing rink. I don't care if it kills me. Nothing is safe with him around.
I then feel my phone vibrate and it jumps me out of my thoughts. I pick up my phone and saw it was a text from Rylie, robins older sister:
the artists sister❤️🤠
NICHOLAS FUCKING CHAVEZ
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!
WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO!
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It was a picture of Robins upper arm. It was completely bruised and nothing but guilt ran through me. I was going to send an excuse, but I shouldn't have an excuse for my actions. It was fucked up of me and I knew it:
the artists sister❤️🤠
I'm sorry...I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have touched her like that. I didn't realize I was gripping so hard. I fucked up Ry and I'm sorry. Please tell her that I'm so so sorry. I know she wouldn't want to talk to me
Nicholas you can't keep doing this. u already know how hard headed she is. She told me u guys spoke about Ryan
Yeah we spoke about him. He's feeding her Un-prescription pills that are hurting her and causing her constant nose bleed!!! You have to believe me Ry
I do I believe u. Ryan has always been out to get you even if that meant hurting Robin. Now that he has her and she's so blinded by his fake love I feel like I've lost all hope.
In two days I'm having a fight and I want to personally apologize to her there. And talk to her about who Ryan really is.
It's going to be tough trying to get her to listen but I'll make sure were there.
Great, it's at 8pm
Okay!! But Nick please never again. I don't care what u two were talking about she's my little sister and I have to protect her as much as I can. I know u are too, but u can't lash out like that. It's not okay. And no matter what i have to be with my sister.
I clicked my phone off and threw it on the ground. Skipping dinner I wrapped up in the blanket on the couch laying my body out and just began to cry sliently letting the tears fall. I felt weak. And everything was just coming together so well...God I hope that this isn't the end of us. I needed her in my life. And Ryan was ruining it by being in the way. He was winning and slowly I was giving up.
