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11:50 ａｌｏｎｅ. ａｔ ｈｏｍｅ.
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this was absolutely the worst.
it was fine, julissa.
stained shirt full of dipped glitter from the result of tears: she felt like absolute sh*t. but did she admit that? no. so here she is, hanging out with a bunch of things that couldn't speak. but hey, at least they could listen.
"-and then, like, after saying i was a mistake, he like, threw a mug at me!"
juliana exclaims, while she receives no reply from the small carat bong and a few other plushies.
"it was so rude. really rude, so i snapped off like when i sharpen my eyeliner pencil!"
no reply. but she laughs at her own joke. ha! i'm such a funny bit*h! she thinks, staring at the forced smiles of the plushies. it reminded her of toy story.
"you guys look so forced... reminds me of me and my instagram page..." her plushies stay silent and so does julissa.
did she really devoted her life to just pleasing people?
if anything, wasn't she pathetic? for wanting approval from others-
whatever.
and so, she forces the tear to come back in.
"here carat bongie, take this cup of tea" she gives out a empty water bottle cup filled with water to the blue plushie very similar to the carat bong right beside it. it was a gift from c.e, really cute, it reminded her of the days where she'd fangirl over kpop.
ha. those days were nice.
she was about to speak to one of her plushies, but then a sudden attack of feelings hit in. shaky, breathless and she's about to cry. it was anxiety. she tries to stop it, clenching her fist, breathing in ans out, counting 1 to ten, but this time- she cannot stop. before she'd notice, there were already tears streaming down her face, all colorless yet it made her makeup all smudged and messed up.
julissa runs up to the mirror and she feels so disgusting.
so fucking disgusting.
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she called her brother. she felt like absolute sh*t, she didn't care.
and her brother was extremely shocked by her story. he felt bad for his sister, he thought she had it all by now, but i guess she never really reached her "dream" yet. so there they were, him listening to her as she weeps her sorrows away.
(julissa brother)
w-well what am i supposed to do now?
actually, i still think you can continue your dream.
no I can't. you know i quit that job. that was the only company that would hire me even though I didn't major in cosmetics! and it's all my fault. i should have studied instead of look at stupid makeup-
no it isn't julissa- listen, you are julissa and the only thing he was right about is your stupidity. gosh, you never understand the fact that you are amazing, talented-
*sobbing? noises*
oh no- I'm so sorry julissa-
that was rude oh god-
no it's fine. i was actually laughing
i was worried for a second there. wow, i'm worried- can you believe that?
but anyways i have an offer.
a what?
an offer. you see, my company is partnering in this company. that company is a fashion comapny; yeah sure, that isn't the same thing for make up, but still. they are looking for a make up artist with experience and could possibly let you attend that one seminar-
what seminar?
oh you know. that one where you teach your experience to newbies who graduated from their thingies. uh i forgot lol i'm not smart, all I know they'll be a lot of people in their 24's to 30's
that's old
well they seem the most interested...
anyways, aren't you popular on social media? i'm sure a few of your fans are there. i'd be screaming OH THAT'S MY MOTHERFEKEN SISTER
oh god please stop I feel embarrassed-
HA that's my pleasure.
(((in the call, there's a voice that calls his name, and he tells the voice he's coming later.)))
that was my girlfriend.
oh alright, you can go right now
alright, think about the offer
okay okay
but one more thing!
what?
happy birthday.
((the phone shows a notification as she listens to his greeting.)) (((phone: 12:00! it's your birthday!)))
