How to Save Someone Like Me

Hearts and Stars

The moment I got on the bus my Kindle made a bing noise.
App Notification.
Yes!
I quickly sat down in an empty seat until somebody tapped my shoulder.
"Ey, that seat's taken." A thick southern accent spoke to me from the seat behind.
"What do you mean? Nobody was sitting here when I sat down." I turned the device off and threw on a puzzled expression. The kid's eyes drifted from me to an overweight kid who tapped my other shoulder and pointed at the seat angrily.
"O-Oh, sorry..." I mumbled and grabbed my stuff then headed to another seat in the back row next to another girl. My face started to heat up in embarrassment from all the other kids snickering and staring at me. Does this bus have reserved seats or something? Damn it, I felt like an idiot.

I turned my Kindle back on and unlocked it.
Click.
Swipe.
Swipe.
Click.

anonymouspillowstar: hey im back from school

CybilNazu: ooo same we watched a freaking Bill Nye video on volcanoes in science

anonymouspillowstar: lmao that's one way to learn

The bus driver took a sharp turn, causing me to fall halfway out of my seat and bump into the girl's backpack.
"Ah, sorry!" I quickly scooted back in the corner as the girl merely waved to me, clutching her phone.

CybilNazu: so... R things getting better in ur life?

anonymouspillowstar: hardly, my mum locked me in the basement yesterday because my dad visited...

CybilNazu: what the fuck? Is he abusing you or something?

anonymouspillowstar: in the past he has, but that's why we left him. And idk how he found us but he did and now he visits whenever he gets the chance

CybilNazu: ok u got to call the po po on this bish

anonymouspillowstar: mum is too scared, so that's why we spend most of our time up at my grandma and grandpa's place in hill country

CybilNazu: im rlly sorry to hear that, nobody deserves to experience what you have had to do.

anonymouspillowstar: hey don't go all soft on me yet, we've only known each other for like a week

CybilNazu: i gotta go to my aprtmnt but when I get in we'll keep talking alright

anonymouspillowstar: yea ok

CybilNazu has signed off.

I hopped off the bus with successfully avoiding other students walking down my path. I reached the door before I suddenly stopped and thought about the trash incident yesterday. Footsteps crunching on leaves grew louder as I quickly decided to hide behind the wall holding the stairs to the next floor. The person who was walking abruptly stopped for a moment then continued down the dirt path. I peered behind the wall to make sure they were gone, then hopped over to my front door.

After kicking the door a couple times for it to open, I closed it and ran upstairs to my room. I have to admit I have been growing more impatient over the days, but it's only because I actually get to talk with someone.

CybilNazu: im baaaack

anonymouspillowstar: Damn what took u so long

CybilNazu: i just had to hide fro

I shook my head and deleted the sentence.

CybilNazu: my key got stuck so it took a couple turns on the knob

anonymouspillowstar: oof that sucks

CybilNazu: ye but r u sure u took ur dad's visit lightly or did something bad happen?

anonymouspillowstar: it's ok im fine

CybilNazu: u can talk to me, remember?

Pause.

anonymouspillowstar: u might get mad

CybilNazu: i would never get mad at u, so what makes u say that?

anonymouspillowstar: it's just that ive been so stressed out and i don't rlly know what to do about it so i start panicking and idk how to cope with it

CybilNazu: so...what have u been doing?

anonymouspillowstar: cutting... im just not worth anything yet ive just been causing so much pain to my mum and my friends

CybilNazu: to ur mum?

anonymouspillowstar: she said im just a bothersome to her and ik it

I closed my eyes. No, I'm not mad, I'm just furious at her mother.

I looked at my wall and around my room, wanting to see anything but that sentence. My eyes suddenly drifted to my dia- I mean notebook, and I got an idea. I repositioned myself on the bed so I was sitting with my back leaning against my pillows.

CybilNazu: what if u did something other than cutting urself?

anonymouspillowstar: wdym?

CybilNazu: well if u cut urself as like punishing urself, why don't u just draw on ur arms or something?

anonymouspillowstar: drawing on myself doesnt give me any pain tho...

CybilNazu: see that's what im talking about. i am here as ur friend and one of my main goals is to help you, and im doing it step by step, one of them is to get u to stop hurting urself and drawing doesnt hurt u

CybilNazu: y don't u just try drawing little things on urself for a while and maybe youll like it?

anonymouspillowstar: if i were to then what would i draw

CybilNazu: uh.. How about stuff like spirals and flowers or maybe even hearts and stars

anonymouspillowstar: this sounds so stupid but i guess it wouldn't hurt to try but i tell u that it is going to fail miserably

CybilNazu: only if u draw like shit

anonymouspillowstar: stfu, anyway gtg it's dinner time

CybilNazu: cya artist

CybilNazu has signed off.
anonymouspillowstar has signed off.

I sighed and fell backwards in my bed, feeling a smile creep up on my face. I felt like I was actually getting somewhere with them. Maybe tomorrow I should ask questions about them, like what type of music they like or what's their favorite food, or maybe finally find out if they're a girl or a boy... Then a disturbing thought seeped into my mind. What if this kid is only pretending to be depressed? What if I'm just wasting my time? I shook my head. I couldn't take that chance.

My eyelids started to feel heavy and I gave in without knowing, still trying to think of conversation topics.

ooo yeyeyeee I typed 1052 words, ur welcome :))))
Also I haven't been getting any good ideas lately but don't worry just remember I'll try to update the book whenever I get the chance to :P