Fight for what you want

I was on the edge to fall down forever!

I was on the edge to fall down forever!

at 1 o'clock it is a winter night

I wake up with a shock,my heart pounding, I feel a pain running around in my body,I start shaking more and more, I crawl out into the living room and shout for help,sweat pay off my cheek and the tear runs down my cheeks,

the only thoughts running through my head are,I will not die now is only 16 years,my sister runs out and keeps me close and puts me on a chair and I shake and shake and stick to my chest where the heart is sitting,I had run out of energy and power I had starved myself in a little over a year's time

my body had reached its maximum point,where there was no room for stress with fake people around one and there was no room to listen to more people's descents,I lived on my lowest, level

I had no more power in this game,I literally drive at the last percentages....

I go to hospitals where they took bloodtest and examined me,I got to know that I should take care of myself and my body, body was so weak if I drive longer it would be my death......!!

I remember the message as if it was yesterday even though it is 4 years ago today,so if i wasn't awake that night i probably wouldn't have been awake!!!!!!!!!!!

boom it hit so hard

I had to see a warning in my eye!!!

said to myself when I was in hospital bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I could have died tonight if I wasn't awake with a shook

I just had to get used to that thought,I lived healthy and cultivate high-level sports and eat healthy

As the doctor said, there is one thing you do not really do,You do not care for yourself and you do not have control over yourself,I said yes doctor!!!!

damn!!!!!

what am I doing?

I was close to killing myself

for what

if i wasn't awake that night at 1am,then my life was over as 16 years,I was so shocked

my family was around me crying!!!

they could have lost me because of my interpretation, they did everything in their power to save me

but I do not listen to them no before I was in the hospital bed....!

dear everyone out there

take care now yourselves and call for help they get is too late