IT IS LOVE!!!

EK LARKI KO DEKHA TO....

There she was, even after three months of her admission, at the last bench at the corner, all alone. Yes, she was new to our school but three months are enough to anyone to mingle around with any people. But there she was all alone, not having a single person to call friend. I notice these not because of anything else but because of my observant nature. Oops did i forgot to introduce myself? I am Arnav Singh Raizada. The so called friendly, jolly and a happy going guy. But no one knows that this is a mere facade to hide the real me.

The girl at the corner is Khushi Kumari Gupta. All i knew about her at that time was her name, which was also due to the courtesy of our class teacher as he used to call every student with their name at roll call. I don't know why but her silence always irked me. It was like a facade to hide her real self. So by searching in the very famous social site, i found her on facebook. I instantly sent her request. But the girl was as stubborn as one could be. She didn't accepted my request for a long time. So i had to personally tell her to accept my request which she did but hesitantly. I knew she was not interested in my friendship but i had to be her friend. Something in her was pulling me towards her. After some days because of my continuous pestering she became my friend and from there started a beautiful journey of our friendship. I never knew but sharing about my day to day activity, talking her to our sleep made me feel  blessed. She would always call me vampire as i used to sleep late at night.She was such a gem of a person. She wanted to know all about me and told me all about her. But i was not able to tell her my deepest darkest secrets due to which i have a wall around my heart. She had her way to know a person, her truth or dare game. She always told me that if she would not know the person fully, how will she be able to support them at their bad. She was a friend of bad times, if one doesn't remember her at their good time, they will always remember her at their bad. She has a different aura around herself. She was a person who was a patient listener who would give her shoulder to cry upon. Her presence itself had a soothing solace. But even after that i was not able to open up.It's not her fault but mine. Life has taught me some difficult lessons at early age. 

 I was a happy kid, my mom was my world, my di was my life. Although dad was always at his one or another business trips, he was my hero. But i guess someone had bad eye on my happy world. That unfortunate day was the day of my di's marriage. My di was happy and i was contended. I saw my mom running to a room, i followed her but what i saw left me too shocked to react. There was a women who was claiming to be my father's mistress and my father's silence only confirmed my mom's accusatory glance. She couldn't comprehend it that her marriage of 23 years was just a sham in the name of marriage, the so called sacred bond. So without thinking about her children, her daughter's happiness, her son's peace she committed suicide not able to take the treachery of her god, her husband. And my dad followed her in guilt. The marriage broke,all the accusation was thrown at my di and her limp made her the target of all the accusatory words of the world. She was called as bad omen and much more. Not able to take all the accusations hurled on her she lost her mental stability. Just in a moment, everything got snatched, my happy world got completely destroyed. And what big he was, Just 13, the 13 year old boy has seen, bared it all. That day Arnav Singh Raizada would also have died if not for her di who still has a chance to come back, come back to him.   This facade is just to show the world and to his demised parents that Arnav Singh Raizada doesn't need anyone to be happy. He has himself which was more than enough for him.

But the storm or rather call it peace came in the very much fake world of mine, named Khushi. He didn't remember when but She became the reason of his sanity. She was important for him to feel at peace. Earlier he would have insomnia because of his worries, his past but now he didn't want to sleep because of her. After their little talk which would always end abruptly due to her sleep, he can easily sleep without having nightmares. But little did i knew that happiness and Arnav can never be in a same sentence.     

After few months i realised that khushi has somewhat managed to break the walls around my heart. She became a very important to me. That i need her like i have never needed anyone. That she is different from the rest of my friends. Unlike others, she was able to look through my facade. She used to be concerned about me, she  used to scold me for every little things. Although i have my maternal family to look after me and di but we are not in a very well off condition. And by what i see, their love, their concern, their care come with a pity which i don't want. I want to work hard to take care of my di and to give her the best treatment of the world. And khushi,  by healing my pain was distracting me from my goal. My pain was my sole motivation to work harder than ever. She needs to go away. I deserve to be in pain.

So i started to give her cold shoulder. I have never interacted with her in class because i didn't wanted anyone to know about us. Not because of anything else but because being with me comes with little disadvantage. As i was known by everyone in the school, so was my past. Not that they behaved different due to that but they would always gave the look of pity, like i was some charity case. I didn't want Khushi to know about my past. I didn't wanted her concern combined with her pity. But that decision of mine made my work easy. I only had to resist myself from chatting with her and whenever she started first i used to show less enthusiasm and she being the self esteemed girl she was, she understood my signs  and gave me the output what i wanted. She stopped messaging.

At our chemistry practicals, i don't know what she understood with my continuous glances  at her table, she left the class for sometimes. I was gathering my courage to be near around her for the last time, but she left. I went to her table in the pretext of asking something and i waited for her to come soon but she didn't, so i had to leave from there as the lab assistant was glaring at me. And as soon as i left she came to her table. Like what the hell.... But when i came out after leave, i saw her all alone at the gate waiting for someone. I was with my classmates, so i couldn't go to her. So i talked to the gate keeper to talk to her after which i got to know she was waiting for her uncle to receive her. We all were hungry but hunger can go to hell for what i care, she was here all alone and i couldn't leave her there. So somehow i convinced them to stay there for some more time. I could feel that she was startled with my presence around her,but could not help,could i?

It was our farewell party, and i saw her for the last time. She was looking sad, vulnerable, i didn't knew why? It was not like she was close to someone that she was feeling this way at the last day. But there she dropped the bomb over me. I didn't knew what to feel? I was feeling happy and sad at the same time.

I got her letter from which i got to know that she loves me but she has forbidden me for contacting her. She was sad about the fact that despite being each other's friend we were stranger in the world's eye.She was not complaining, it was a statement, pure statement. And how dare she to think that i am ashamed of someone's who was very important to me. But why i am blaming her? I never let her know what i feel and how she is important to me. She doesn't want to see my face. Why ? Was my indifference hurt her so bad that she choose to not see that face whom she seems to love?

Even after getting what i wanted, i can't get peace. My heart is restless feeling that she might be crying in her closed room thinking where she went wrong. I have wronged her enough to make her cry. Am i that bad? That's why i didn't want anyone close to me. They all suffer because of me. People says right that i am a curse ,a bad omen. But khushi? She's the most beautiful angel in the human form. And i have hurt her.Again, because of me someone is hurt. Please god give me chance to rectify my mistake. And if not, please help her to recover as i know how sensitive she can be. Please!!!!

AUTHOR'S NOTE

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR LOVE AND ALL THOSE BEAUTIFUL COMMENTS. I AM GLAD THAT YOU LIKED MY STORIES. I AM OVERWHELMED WITH THE LOVE ME AND MY STORY GOT. 

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