When I Lost My Love

Chapter 3

You are my child, and I love you

You are my world, and you love me too

I want to keep you here, and never let you go

I will never leave you and I want you to know

You're the best little booger snot in the world

and that's why god made you my little girl

You were made special for me

That's the way it will always be

And I love you, don't you see

I love you my little Trisha! Little bee

I loved my mother to death and I repeated that song all night, she wrote it when I was 4 and she has sung it for me until she died 2 years ago, but when I sung it, it wasn't the same. I must have fallen asleep. I know I keep doing this but to be honest I'm used to sleeping on my floor. My room wasn't much. My bed was a normal full size mattress that sat on the floor. I had a thrift store dresser. No carpet. My floor had cracked and splits in the wood. I did have a bathroom, my father got tired of seeing me creep through the hallway at night, so I had to switch rooms and this is what I got. I did have nice clothing from two years ago. The aches that came from lying on the floor became comforting. I thought I would be immune to the pain, but you never are, just accustomed. I just wish my mother wouldn't have gone and left me behind.

My alarm went off and I got up and got dressed for school. This time I took my time and tried to look better than yesterday. I put on a white v-neck T-shirt and blue skinny jeans and my white boots with a jean vest jacket. Even tho I lived like trash didn't mean I looked like trash, thanks to my mother. I had decent things to wear, but it was pointless when I had to hide my skin anyways, to cover the bruised. But this time I had a purpose. I had a boyfriend. I may have found my escape.

I grabbed the rest of my things and met up with Lucas. He had on a white tee and blue jeans and those same shoes. I guess that's his style. He walked up to me and put his arm around my neck and pulled me into his lips. It felt good to be loved again... well at least liked by someone.

"Hey sweet cheeks, how you been?" He spun me around to face him. He took my lips to his and I felt the sparks fly. At that moment I felt loved, I felt like by someone. I felt like someone else. We walked to school hand in hand, and it felt good to have someone to adore me. I mean really adore me. Maybe I could be jumping the gun, but it felt good. 

"So I'm going to meet you back here after school right?" He studied my face, waiting for me to answer. I still couldn't believe that we were dating.

"Yes, of course" He pushed some stray hair behind my ear and he kissed me once more. I felt everyone's eyes on us, but he didn't care so neither did i.

He turned away and walked away with friends, I walked towards my locker and saw Spencer standing at my locker so I decided to wait in the bathroom until he leaves. I got into one of the stools and sat there. Then Avian came in with her friends and I heard all the juicy gossip.

"Have you guys seen Trisha and Lucas? What an awful mess. I think Lucas can do a little better than her." They all laughed. I felt the words tug at my heart and I want to cry but I held my ground.

"Well, Avian she did look good today. She has a nice body when you look at her, and she wears clothes that fit her body well." That was Cheyanne talking looking at herself in the mirror. I felt good. That was a compliment.

"Oh my god, Chey were you checking her out, like she's a complete slut. You know she wants Spencer all to herself, but your right. She does look nice." What she said was not true. I wanted her to keep him away from me.