When I Lost My Love

Chapter 2

I walked into 1st period, which was Geometry, Mrs. Gillan and sat in my seat in the back. I never want to be upfront because I just don't want to be seen. Most of the student body hated me only because I was different at least that's what I told myself to get by in school. The only seat that was left was the one that was next to the prettiest girl in the school, she bullied me a lot. so not only did I have to deal with my father at home but Avian Evans as well. As I said, people just aren't my thing.

Avaian was a captain of the gymnastics team, and volleyball as well. She was just as important as Spencer. I'm sure that why they were together. She was proud to be calling herself Soencers girlfriend, but I didn't see the point. He was a douchbag. She stood 5"7, olive skin, dirty blonde hair. Thin lips, but she was pretty. She was full bodies, I'd say she was a small bcup. She was athletic, small pointy nose, the basics of mean girl. 

She hung around with 3 other girls. Bethany who was a little shorter and not as pretty as Avian. Her hair was darker. Krystal, spelled with a "K" she swear it makes her exotic, and Cheyanne. She hung with them but she never gave me the mean girl vibe, she was more of the quiet type that didn't really partake in the things they did much. She had her moments though. She was petite, she died her hair scarlet, big eyes. She was actually pretty the pan Avian. My opinion Avian couldn't beat her so they became friends in a weird way.

Sometimes I wish I could be a witch or something and make her pretty blonde locks fall out, or give her acne and a hunchback. I would have done anything just to be left alone. One time I thought about selling my soul to the devil, for one chance to make them suffer, but I want to join my mother in heaven when I die.

I was lost in thought when a paper ball hit me in the face. I looked and saw that Avian threw it and she and her crew was laughing. I put my head down and let my hair cover my face. Every time the teacher would turn her back they would do something. Once they cut my hair from the back. Thank god it grew back fast. Another time they put water in my seat right before I sat down and yelled that I pissed my pants. That was the first time they had seen me cry. I never want anyone to see me cry, I do that enough at home.

I thought only bad people would have bad lives, but now I see that anybody could have a fucked up life. My life just happen to be disgusting. Sometimes I would think about killing myself but I never would because that is frowned upon by god, who in the same breath I feel like is punishing me. I went through school in zombie mode. I paid no attention to others and just did my work and left. I let a few tears fall by accident but my hair covered my face enough so no one would see.

I peeked up a few times seeing one of the guys Daniel, that hangs out with Avian watching me with pity and regret in his eyes. Was it pity for me? Regret about me? But it was quickly recovered when his name was called by one of his friends. I was just seeing things. The bell rang and I grabbed my things fast, but when I went to get up I was snatched back down. Everyone laughed as they walked out of the classroom. 

"What a loser!" Bethany yelled. 

They tied my hair to the back of my chair. I had fun untangling that. I cried while the teacher helped to say how sorry she was that my life was so screwed up. How sorry she was that nothing could be done. I understand why she would be scared to help, they would really tear her down and she would be jobless, but why does that mean I have to suffer? 

"You gotta fight back Trisha, you just got to." 

I cried more seeing that this was taking too long and it was knotted. "I can't Mrs. Dumash. I just can't." besides who would fight with me. It's clear that I have no one, not even my father would lift a finger for his only daughter. His only child for that matter.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Let me help you, Trish?" she said trying to untangle my hair. I knew it wasn't anything we could do. My dad would kill me, Spencer would kill me, and Avian would make my life worst.