I'm Going Crazy~ [BNHA AU story - Villain Deku]

Chapter 4

After I cut open my wrists, I looked back at myself in the mirror. I didn't see future me anymore. I saw... me. There was blood everywhere and I just knew that I was going crazy. I turned on the tap and the water rushed down the sink. I started to tear up and cry.

I sniffled as I put my wrists in the water. It stung badly but I didn't show it. Once I washed my wrists and covered them up with bandages, I saw the knife that I used on the floor, still soaked in blood. The floor too was covered in my flood. I muttered "This is what you did" over and over as I wiped the blood off the floor with my fingers and spreading on the walls.

I wrote THIS IS WHAT YOU DID in big capital letters on the wall with my own blood. Everything I did was done and I walked out of the bathroom and into my room. I didn't say another word to my mom that night.

I could hardly sleep. I couldn't even close my eyes. That dark sense of me was back and continued talking to me and I wanted it to stop.

"Kill him, Izuku. Murder that son of a bitch. Slash his throat open and watch all of his blood go everywhere." I swear I was getting schizophrenia. I knew that only I could hear the voices.

"Shut up! Get out of my head!" I said as I grabbed onto my hair. All I could hear then was laughter.

"You need me, Izuku. You can't do this on your own. You're going to kill him." The voice cackled and shrieked with laughter.

"Leave me alone!" I cried, holding my head with my knees tucked to my chest. I breathed heavily and rocked back and forth, hoping all of this would just stop. I ended up bursting into tears as the voices kept on talking to me and encouraging me to murder Kacchan.

I didn't sleep very well last night. I didn't sleep at all. I was having breakdowns and having coit ainous nightmares. Sure, I really hated Bakugo but he doesn't deserve to die.

I walked into my classroom with scruffy hair and dark bags around my eyes. I sat down at the back corner of the room then looked over at Bakugo who was talking to his friends. I kept on staring at him. I could hear his voice fading and the ticking noises of the clock getting louder and echoy. I was holding a pencil in both my hands, dear glaring Kacchan. I then suddenly snapped the pencil with anger and turned my body around to face the teacher.

I was scratching something into the desk as the teacher was teaching things and doing his job. I paid attention to whatever I was scratching and thinking about how I should murder Bakugo. Maybe I should... kill him fast. No. I wouldn't be able to see him suffer. I'll make multiple slow and painful stab wounds in his body and watch him cry and scream. I smirked at my own idea.

By lunch I was sitting by myself but I wasn't eating anything. I was scratching things into my palms with a stick. I could hear Kacchan laugh at me and I could tell that he was talking to me behind my back.

"What a freak..." I heard him say. My green hair covered my dark eyes and only my mouth was showing. "That kid has serious problems." He laughed at his own stupid little joke and so did his friends. I scratched my palm with the stick so hard that it started to bleed. That showed on how angry and desperate I was to kill that bastard. I was hungry for it and I need it now.