Bound and Broken

Bound Twenty-Seven

As the sun sets down, I think my feelings for this man were also going down along with it. I feel like, it was also fading away just like the sun, slowly being replaced by the moon. The light turning into darkness.

But how come it's still beating so fast? Do my feelings, deceive me? Do I still love him?

I don't know.. I just don't know.

I felt him, slowly pulling away from the kiss. I bit my lower lip, hard.

Should we really be doing this? Is this right?

He rested his forehead on mine as his hands cupped my face. I can still hear his ragged breathing.

He then gazed down at me. His eyes filled with.. Promises? Sorrow? Sadness? I don't know.

I pushed him as soon as I saw him going in for another kiss.

I don't think this is right.. I can't make another mistake.

"What's wrong?" He asked as if he was worried.'

"This isn't right. Stop this madness, Andrew. It's over remember? Just like what you said to me, before. You told me to f*ck off. I don't even know why you're doing this." I stood up and put my shoes on. I was about to leave when he grabbed my wrist. I looked down at him, scowling.

"What?!" My voice was low but I wasn't pleased by his actions.

He was looking up at me.. His eyes, pleading.

Please don't say anything or else... I might make another mistake.. And I don't want that..

He shooked his head and slowly, let go of my wrist.

And before he could change his mind, I ran, as fast as I can.

I just need to get out of here. To clear my mind... And to decide.

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21:45 na ng makauwi ako sa apartment ni Vince. Mas maaga sana akong nakauwi kung hindi lang grabe ang traffic.

Medyo madilim ang buong apartment. Siguro wala pa siya.

Dumiretso na ako sa kwarto ko para makapag-pahinga. Grabeng pagod ang naranasan ko ngayong araw. Parang gusto kong magpahinga habang buhay.

Ay wag pala habang buhay, ibang usapan na yun.

Hindi ko na binuksan yung pinaka-ilaw sa buong kwarto dahil pakiramdam ko nakakasilaw ito masyado, kaya yung lamp shade na lang ang binuksan ko para dim lang yung ilaw.