was i special
is that why you cheated
cause you thought you didnt deserve me
so you made me feel like i didnt deserve anything
its happened before and i didnt care
i only cared cause how you did it, you used my universe to make me angry
you used my friends
you used my chụp
it hit me hard, for i while i was a different person. if i had taken count of the things i did which were different i would learn new numbers
do you remember...
i had a panic attack in second period
and i asked the teacher if i could go out
she said yes
i cried in the hallway
i couldnt make it to the bathroom so i sobbed on the floor outside
the teacher came out
i liked her
she was nice
she told me that life is short and it hits hard
she told me existing is short but living is long, not to let the demons control me
she gave me sometime out to breathe
i knocked on the door, the cheap looking design of it hurt as my knuckles throbbed from clutching my arms so hard
from punching things
you opened the door
and i started crying again
but no one could see it
you tried to say something but i pushed past you. i didnt want to hear you
me and my whole world sat down next to each other. i laid my head on her shoulder. she stroked my hair. it felt nice.
you tried to get with her
but instead she was there for me and hung up on your call and told me.
i love her
she hates me now
you never loved me
i cant hate anymore
if i did
i would hate everything to much to be alive.
