so it's been 48 hours since he broke up with me. he said it was because i was distant and he was unhappy. sigh. i won't dismiss the fact that i was distant, but its because i suffer from depression and so it's hard trying to be the same person everybody knows when your mind is telling to kill yourself and that nobody loves so i'm sorry i couldn't always be there and it's not like i didn't try. like that's hard trying to push your demons away without any help. i tried to text and call but every time it was short replies or thumbs up and when i called it was "sorry can't talk" so i did stop. i stopped to get better cause the one person besides myself who was supposed be there to help the fight like they promised wasn't there.
this is very short but i'm on the verge of tears, i just wanna leave you with this. if you're mental health isn't something of importance to them as it should leave. it only gets worse. i'm not saying completely depend on them, but there should at least be something from them saying "hey, i'm here for you"
