Thoughts and Feelings

a paragraph of handwritten tears on paper

I was told
to be strong
and i became
i felt so much
pain until it felt
like only thing that
understood me
the only thing that
stayed when they all
would leave one by one
i felt alone so i built myself
walls and they were beginning
to close in. I'm faced with reality
i try to be strong but I'm really not
i leave a rope beside my walls for you
to save me. i await the rain that may come with thunder. but still i await the rain to wash away all my sorrows. my heart is screaming my mind is like prison and these tears are the only way to escape it. I'm sorry. Breathe.
rain seems like a fantasy for the
only rain i get is the flood I'm drowning in now. i await
for you to come save me.
these misty eyes will
see better days. my
heart will not always
be bleeding. but for
now i will smile.
one day i will
be brave enough to let
my walls down. but
until then i will await
you to come and
save me ♡