My Life

3. have you. July 11th

July 11th

11:56 pm

How often do you stay up with your mind rasing. Do you have a sudden surge to do something the second be for falling asleep.

That how I feel. I'm at my friends house, with a creepy thoght. I won't tell you that thought, but I have it.

I just want to kill myself.

And I know in said that last time.you may just think I'm seeking attention, many I am, but I truly do, I just had a few things to accomplish be for I do.

I want to tell you something from my week. On day I was at home with my brother and mother, my brothers feet where killing him because he had to stand for 8 hours at work. I offered to masage his feet and I did. My mom walks into the living room while we where washing a tv show and I was rubbing his feet, and she looked at me with utter disgust. I think she was drunk. She started to tell at me saying since I'm gay I want my brother to fuck me, my older brother by 3 years. All I could think is 'what the he'll is wrong and I me. I'm a big pervert.' I had no wrong intentions, hell, I wouldn't even want a family member to do that to me. Especially my older brother.

My plan to get back at that birch was simple. Just give myself a hair cut. Best part is, it turned out grate... Well for me mostly. My mom was pissed. And there was a lot of yelling. But my hair is sexy and longish. All boys dreams.

Well that's all for tonight.🐨🐯🐼🍀