The Silence That Brings us Closer . ( Erasermic )

•Don't Leave Me•

{WARING:kinda a lemon/smutty part}

They had barely gotten through the press which surrounded the hospital, waiting for Hizashi, wanting to ask him questions he could never answer.

Hizashi held his knees to his chest and buried his head between them as Shota drove him home. He didn't want this. He didn't think this would ever happen to him. What could he even do. Nothing. That's all he thought. Now he was useless. Useless to his work. Useless to his friends and family. He felt useless to himself.

He cried quietly due to the fact he wasn't able to make a sound yet his chest still heaved with each staggered breath he took through the tears. He gripped his jeans and pulled his legs closer to him causing Shota to look over from the driver side of the car.

Shota sighed as he looked upon Hizashi. The blonde was the happiest person he knew and had ever met. He was always smiling and laughing even if it was just an act to make another feel better. Shota hid It well but he really did feel happy around the male. However, now it was his turn to try and make Hizashi feel the same. Shota never was quite the cheery type though so he just awkwardly reached over and rubbed the male's back with one hand as the other rest on the wheel driving them home.

•timeskip•

Shota helped Hizashi inside of the blonde's home. He let out a loud exhale from his nose in frustration of what to do now. He knew his friend would be very sensitive and need care to get back to himself. Which was very unlikely due to his state.

Once they were settled inside Shota when to look around to familiarize himself with where the food, silverware, toiletries, etc. would be due to his extended stay that would take place in the house.

Hizashi let out a heavy huff and picked himself up from the couch before walking into his bedroom full of pain and self pity. He slid his shoes off , removed his glasses, setting them on a nightstand, and then took off his jacket throwing it astray in the room which was decorated in various posters and even had a keyboard and guitar in one corner. But in retrospect it looked almost the same as it had when he was younger, even considering this was a different house he moved his items into this one like a normal person.

Once in bed Hizashi pulled the sheets over his head and a pillow close to his body to hug, something that at the moment was desperately needed. His eyes began to fill with tears again as his thoughts ran ramped in his mind. To which the tears fell faster.

As Shota walked around he grabbed a pen and a small notepad from the kitchen and went back to the living room to find Hizashi. However, to his surprise the blonde wasn't there. Shota then panicked a bit.

"Hizashi...?" Shota called out before realizing he called to a man who couldn't respond.

Hizashi heard this and sniffled before pulling the pillow closer to his body. He decided to try though maybe the doctor was wrong, maybe just maybe...

Only a wheeze escaped his mouth but tears fell from his eyes. Shota quickly walked into Hizashi's bedroom and sighed. He didn't like seeing Hizashi like this, it hurt him. Shota walked over to the bed and sat down next to Hizashi, then he began to rub the male's back from the outside of the blanket.

"Zashi.... please don't cry...." he said in a soft stoic voice. He sat the notepad down and moved his hand to the top of the covers before pulling them down to show the blonde's face with tears dripping from his nose and other areas.

Hizashi turned to face Shota and quickly pushed himself up and into the male's arms. He buried his face into the ravenette's shoulder and cried. His hands made their way around Shota's waist and grasp tightly at his shirt. He was hyperventilating and shaking.

Shota was shook by the embrace but soon returned with a light blush on his face and his arms around the male. He found himself telling the blonde words of safety and comfort.

"It's going to be okay Hizashi... I swear I won't let anyone ever hurt you again... you're going to be daft from now on... I won't ever leave you..."

Then it slipped out.

"I love you too much to ever leave you again-"

Shota turned a dark red and froze in place as he heard what came from his mouth. Hizashi might have been mute, but he sure as hell wasn't deaf. However Hizashi was already crying so hard he couldn't stop to look at Shota in the smallest bit of confusion.

The ravenette stuttered trying to start a new sentence and was embarrassed he actually said that. And Hizashi probably heard it. 'Oh fuck ... I just said that ...' he thought as he slowly began to rub Hizashi's back till he stopped crying.

Hizashi's breathing has calmed slightly as he rested in Shotas arms. He kept his tear stained face buried into shotas neck as he let out soft breaths. His arms claps themselves tighter around the male's back. 'He said he loves me...' this thought was racing in Hizashi's mind. His heart fluttered a bit when Shota had said that. He did like the male. So much that there had been lewd thoughts of the ravenette.

•flashback•

Hizashi bit his lip as he scrolled through images he had snuck on his phone. Most were of Shota when he was drunk. A few of him were shirtless when he was changing. However one video he had was from when Shota stayed at his house and had stripped and he didn't know at the moment before he was drunkenly video taping when he walked into the room Shota was in.

Hizashi licked his lips before pressing play on the video he had watched dozens of times before.

"SHOOOOOTA-!" Hizashi slurred in the video as he stumbled through his house holding his phone in hand. " I goooootta ask *hic* you something-!" He then opened the door showing Shota fully nude, his back was turned to Hizashi at the moment so all was showing was Shota's muscular back and thicc juicy ass and thighs.

Hizashi was silent for a second keeping the camera on Shota. Shota scratched his neck and then looked back in his drunken state.

" Hmm...?" He murmured as he slowly turned to face Hizashi, showing off his muscular torso and his groin area.

Hizashi (the one who is watching the video) slowly slid his hand into his pants and began to stroke himself with one hand. After the video ended he slid his pants halfway down, lubed himself up, and began to say lewd things as he moved his hand up and down his shaft,moaning Shota's name hotly.

"Uh~ ... f-fuck Shota~ ... God I wish I could be inside y-you~...." Hizashi grunted as his cock dripped pre-cum and twitched in his hand.

•flashback is over that's all imma give you hahaha (for now)•

Hizashi sighed softly onto Shota's neck and tried to push out the thought. He decided to just stay there and enjoy the warmth and care Shota was providing.