It's Our Little Secret | JOHNYONG | NCT

6. YOLO

"Here." Taeyong handed Johnny a mug of hot chocolate as he settled himself beside the taller man. Johnny accepted the drink from him, staring at the mug of chocolate goodness.

Johnny looked like he was still out of it.

As Taeyong clutched on his own mug of chocolate, he contemplated carefully the next couple of words he was going to say to Johnny.

"So, uhm... I know this is a difficult time for you...." Taeyong started. ".... But since when have you and Ten started dating again?"

Johnny gave him a look. "Really? You're asking me when we started dating just after we broke up?"

Taeyong's eyes were as round as discs. "Uhm... Yes?"

Johnny just sighed at Taeyong's Taeyongness and simply sipped at his chocolate. After taking a gulp, he pressed his lips before he started speaking. "Well, if you must know, he and I started dating just after I transferred here from Chicago. We were both foreigners, him being Thai and all, so we were kinda forced into joining this club that your friend, Osaka boy, made for all the foreign students."

"Oh please don't tell me you met him at a-"

"Speed dating, yeah..." Johnny smiled fondly, just staring at his chocolate. "After that I asked for his number and things hit off from there."

"Ten and I's relationship, not fucking perfect in the least. Try being the best boyfriend to a tiny ball of mood swings for Christ's sake! Then we both kind of started gaining popularity and the ego just... Escalated."

"We'd get into these ridiculous fights, not letting him do what his crazy friends are doing and then he starts screaming at me for no absolute reason! I can't even count the number of times we've broken up because of his petty ass."

"Wait a minute." Taeyong stopped Johnny's ranting for a minute. "So this isn't the first time you and Ten broke up?"

Johnny looked at Taeyong for a moment before going back to his drink. "Well... Yes and No... This is the first time that I broke up with him."

Taeyong looked at Johnny completely shocked. "... Why?"

Johnny was so silent before he answered that Taeyong almost heard the crickets that were lurking on their garden bushes. He heard the taller man sigh heavily and Taeyong knew this wasn't just like the regular break ups the couple had.

"I think... I think I just can't love anymore..."

Hearing this shook him. This completely broke Taeyong's heart. Taeyong believed in the power of love so strongly. The capabilities, the beauty in it. But he never saw the tragedy.