I never crave ice cream during rainy days or hot soup during summer days.
I always starve for the contrary,for the opposite of something---like how I longed for sweet lullabies of the bedtime and warm kisses of the sun before I could witness the innocent morning.
And 2018 is almost over and I want you to know that like the four seasons, I crave for your presence every now and then. My longing does not tolerate the idea of having in between. In my heart, you're still shining during your dark days and I find you more dazzling during the happy moments. You don't really need to look magical, you just need to feel good about yourself. You're magic, Sweetheart.
It's sad knowing that sometimes you feel bad about yourself---feeling unappreciated and not enough.
But you're more than just the sad thoughts and you're stronger than this terrible life.
And if you feel like people are quitting, leaving you behind, and forgetting, it's never your fault.
You are just too good that even destiny decided to make the move.
When I say I want to know you more--
I mean, I want your sudden thought when you saw the moon. I want your playlist so I could listen to it and contemplate its meanings, by that I'm able to understand what you're thinking and feeling. Your favorite color would remind me some things. Your favorite words would make me smile instantly.
When I say, I want to know you deeply---I mean, tell me the reason of your sadness and pardon me if I'm not good at comforting. Tell me the little causes of your happiness and let me be one of them. Tell me about the lies that you've said and the mistakes the you've made before. Tell me about your little bad side.
I crave for emotional intimacy so much and I want you to be my victim even if you're not willing. You see, you're made of stardust and gold, sweetheart. Your mind is a paradise I am willing to get lost.
And I want you to feel the warmth of the sun when you feel that life is getting cold. I want you to be stronger and tougher than this life because you really are. I want to remind you that you are appreciated. You're a fan of loving,I hope you're loving yourself too, like you were always meant to.
