miss you ... elijah best

If There's a Will

Ethan was so broken after that.

Whenever I came over to hang out with them, Ethan would shut himself in his room and lock the door.

It was a sad time. I missed having him around.

Whenever he did come out he would just grab food or a drink and would avoid any conversation.

It lasted for about 3 months. Until I brought my cousin Amie over with me.

I wasn't even trying to set Ethan up with her. She just came over to stay with me and my parents for a couple of weeks and I was going to hang with Elijah, so, I brought her with me.

We were playing a board game when Ethan came out for some soda.

Then he laid eyes on Amie. I could tell it was something special from the first time they made eye contact.

After that, he started coming out of his room more to hang out with us.

A few days before Amie was sent to leave, we got the news from both our parents that Amie's parents had bought a house just near us, and Amie was staying with us so that it would be a surprise.

When we told Ethan, he was ecstatic. No- literally he was jumping around the house screaming "OHMYGODYES!"
and "HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP!"

It was honestly the best I had seen that boi in months.

About 2 months later they started dating.
It was sorta cool having two cousins date, two twins.

My cheeks, red and blotchy become wet again. Poor Amie, at least we went through everything together.

Fuck this. Fuck everything. Saying it's gonna get better doesn't mean it fucking will!

Anger erupted from inside of me and I swear for just a second everything turned red.

I yell and scream and bolt down the stairs.

I kick open the front door and sprint off of the property. I cut through the woods until the familiar clearing surrounds me.

I start to whimper and pant at the same time and scream again. I speedwalk towards the stones that stood tall beside each other.

"I hate you!" I scream. "I hate you for leaving me!"

"And I hate these damn holes in the ground too!"

"You took my everythings from me!" My tears flow thickly onto the ground.

I pant and my voice becomes weak. I fall to my knees in front of my fallen angels.

"We just turned 21 and we're taking a road trip to celebrate!"
Elijah smiles.

"Woohoo!" Ethan cheers, looking up at the car ceiling.

From the front seat of Ethan's car, Amie and I laugh, our ridiculous boyfriends fooling around in the back.

I swerve the car back and forth a few times so that Ethan and Elijah fall over with an oof.

Amie points the camera at me. I look over and make a silly face, I take my eyes off of the road for one second, a scream comes from Ethan, and everything turns black.

•••

I wake in the hospital. My vision is fuzzy and my hearing seems to be distorted. After a few minutes of lying still my senses go back to normal.

"Hello?" I squeak out, my voice is raspy and weak. "Yes, hello honey." I nurse walks out from behind a curtain.

"Wh-what happened? Why am I in here?" "Car crash. A nasty one too. Don't worry dear you only got a minor concussion." She assured.

After literally two seconds a question pops into my head.
"Are my friends okay?" I ask worriedly.

The nurse gave me a pitiful look and my heart sinks.

"The girl is fine, but... The two twins are in critical condition. If I'm being straight with you, I don't think they'll make it."

When my brain processed what she had just said, things went in slow motion.

I scramble out of the bed and push past the nurse.

I make my way into the sickeningly white hallway and check the door to my right.

It seemed that someone had gotten out in a rush because the blanket and pillow were on the floor.

I bolt and peek inside to the left.
I blonde girl is standing in the room, standing over one of two beds. Amie.

I sprint to the other bed and my heart shatters into a million pieces.

Elijah's body was pale, and there were several machines hooked up to him. "Lije..." I whisper, sliding my hand into his.

His eyes barely open, and they look at me in sadness.

"Remember me." He begs helplessly. I gasp and shake my head. "I promise you'll find someone new and move on."

He smiles weakly and squeezes my hand. "N-no. I won't have to move on because we will be together forever." I press his hand to my heart.

"I love you, YN..." "I love you too, but-but..." The monitor started to beep very fast until it flatlined. His heart. Stopped.

"ELIJAH!" I scream. Only seconds later Ethan flatlines too.

The room is filled with our sobs and yells.

A few seconds later we are dragged outside, the doctors trying to save our boys.

Please save them, please save them.

But they couldn't.