The Timbers

Chapter 4

**Trigger Warning! This chapter contains some more graphic material dealing with self harm**

Recap:
Should I tell them? No I can't that is a sign of weakness, I can't show weakness... I have to be brave!
I decided not to say anything but of course it didn't work. Tears kept falling from my eyes I tried to hide them and stop crying, it didn't work, finally I just let it go, screw being brave I have had enough disappointment in my life.
I stopped fighting the tears and just. Let it happen, I'm not telling them what happen but I'm just not gonna stop myself from crying I need to let it out at some point, I buried my head in my hands, then Dillon said "Alana! Come on, please tell us what's wrong!! Is it mom and dad?! What's wrong?!?"
Ahh I couldn't anymore!! "ITS EVERYTHING!!!!! MOM DAD SCHOOL BULLIES, EVERY ONE HATES ME!!!! AND I AM SO SICK OF BEING PUSHED AROUND!!!" I yelled, I ran into the bathroom and locked the door, I got out my blades and began to cut all over my arm, it used to hurt but now all the pain has numbed it, I cut 4 cuts on my arm both of them, I yelled on the last one, that was a mistake, I was losing a lot of blood I started getting dizzy until I fainted, all I could remember is the door being kicked open.
**Dillon's POV**
Me and the guys heard a slam coming from Alana's room, so we ran up there, when we opened the door she was crying on the chair, when she realized we were there she tried to hide that she was crying, I tried talking to her and I told her "Alana come on please tell us what's wrong !! Is it mom and dad?! What's wrong!?!" She yelled back "ITS EVERYTHING!!!!!! MOM DAD SHOOL BULLIES, EVERYONE HATES ME!!! AND I AM SO SICK OF BEING PUSHED AROUND!!!" Wow I was not expecting that, she ran into her bathroom and there was silence for like 5 seconds my heart broke, I've never seen her like this... I heard a piercing scream, oh no. We all ran to the bathroom door and tried to open it, it was locked, so I kicked it in, and what we saw made us break to pieces, there on the floor was Alana, her arms covered in blood, and her eyes fluttering closed, there were blades everywhere, blood everywhere, and she was fainted on the ground looking very pale. We ran to her side and then Nathan picked her up and we rushed her to the car and to the hospital, "vinny come on!!!!" I yelled at vinny, Weston Nathan, Sam, Dean,where in one car and me, max, Austin, Tyler, Luke and vinny where in a different car, all heading the same way.
**at the hospital**
Our car got here a bit late thanks to traffic, and when we got here I saw Nathan covered in blood not a lot but enough for us to worry.
It seemed like hours have passed until we heard something but finally the nurse came out and said "Alana Timbers family." We all shot up, but vinny was a sleep in a chair
She walked over to us "okay so it wasn't as bad as I thought, though she does have a lot of scars, cuts all on her arms, we were able to give her stitches for her fresh ones, but she has lost a good bit of blood, I suggest you don't let her near sharp objects, and keep an eye on her at school, cause that's where most of this usually starts. Any ways we are gonna run a few more tests in her, then you can take her home, and we are giving her some pain killers." When the nurse was done she smiled and left, we all let out a breath.
**Tylers POV**

I never knew that our little Alana was in so much pain, I thought she was just under about her parents but I had no clue she was being bullied, she never talked about it... "Guys this is all starting to make sense" I said to her brothers and my brothers "what do you mean?" Asked Luke "well, I honestly didn't know she had cut before but I did get suspicious once," I continued "we were all at dinner in a restaurant and when we left as we were walking to the car me and Lani linked arms and skipped to the car, once we got inside I noticed some makeup or cream thing on my jacket, she could have been covering them up..." I said with a worried look. her brothers looked so broken I mean we all did but it seemed way harder for them "yea and the fact she hasn't been eating, I have seen some girls around her, but I just thought maybe they were friends of hers, but they could have been the bullies maybe telling her that she was fat or something, that could have made Alana believe It and think she needed to lose wait, and the only way that would be easiest In her mind was to stop eating..." Weston said really sad out of all the cousins he was closest to Alana "but that is crazy Lani isn't fat at all" said Nathan "yea Nathan but that's not the point, see when you are being bullied eventually you start believing everything they tell you." Said Austin "I have noticed three girls hanging around her but like you Weston I thought they were friends of hers" said Sam "I know those girls..." Said Dillon "what?" Asked Max "I know the girls you guys are talking about... Ashely Burns and her two little worshippers Dorian something and Malissa something, they would talk to me sometimes in between classes saying that they know Lani and how much fun they have with her, I was so stupid not seeing how clearly they were telling me they were bullying her!" Dillon continued "how could none of us have known?" Asked Dean "I sink I knew" said Vinny in his little kid voice he wasn't trying to be cute he just tallied like that "what did you say bud?" Asked Austin "well if those girls are being wrilly mean to Lani zen I sink I knew cus wheneva I would walk by her wroom afto school she would sit in her desk and cwy fo a wrilly long time and den she would go to da bafwroom and would do sumshing that would make her cwy even more and den when she would walk out of da bafwroom her arm would be bweeding and she would cover it up wit a towel and sit and cwy some more..." Said Vinny in very bad English "Vinny why didn't you tell one of us?" Asked sam "cus I didunt knew what it meant!" Vinny protested "okay well Vinny if you ever see her do that again come and get one of us or any adult, if you see anyone hurting themselves, or being bullied you should tell an adult so that they can help the victims like Lani, none of us knew what was happening to her and she ended up in a hospital." Said Austin " I'm sowy.." Said Vinny "it's okay bud but next time make sure to get one of us." Said Dean,
I looked over at Dillon, oh boy he must really be blaming himself for this.... I wish he wouldn't.. It wasn't his fault.

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Hey guys so sorry for the long wait for an update but it is finally here!!!! So Alana didn't exactly tell her brothers she kind of exploded, but.... That's what happens when you try to hide your emotions they eventually build up inside you until one day you just completely explode, so don't keep your emotions in if you need to talk to someone about anything that's going on in your life if you're being bullied or if you just simply want to talk to someone just know I'm here if you want to talk to me just talk to me and I will answer I will talk to you and I will build a relationship with you too I don't mind talking to anybody if you need help I would be happy to give it to you. and another thing if you know that someone is self harming or being bullied and you think that they're not going to help themselves by speaking up and telling someone I think that you should go to a teacher or a parent and anonymously you know just tell them "hey this person is hurting themselves and I care about them and I don't want to see them do this so can you help them but not tell them that it was me that told you because I mean maybe they might take offense to that" you never know but one way or another it's good to help people and I would be happy to help you if you have any problems just comment on my page you can comment personally and if you want we can exchange emails and we can email each other and I will be totally okay with that anyway I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I will try to update soon but don't get too hopeful because I don't know if I'm going to update very soon alright thank you guys so much I love y'all 😘😘😘