What a life

All good ? Pt 2

Novias pov: being at the hospital and seeing mals momma made me upset , me and my mother never got along but why ? Why she hate me so much but loved zay I don't understand never did and I never tried to figure it out I just always argued back I'm 19 about to be 20 and for almost 20 years I've never had a full conversation with her and seeing how upset mal is and knowing his mom can be gone at any minute broke my heart it actually softened me up

* leaving the hospital* we rode in the car in complete silent I had so much on my mind " what's wrong with you ma"
" uh nothing" I lied "come on Ik you're lying talk to me" "it's just seeing you and your mom and how close you are it just hurts me and my mother literally cannot stand each other"
" I say you talk or at least try I'm my mothers only child and she played the mother and father it's killing me knowing she could be gone at any minute you only get one mother novia" I looked at him knowing he was right I've been here for almost two months now and since that altercation I haven't seen or heard from her
" do you mind taking me to my mothers house" he looked at me and grinned really hard " anything for you babygirl" the rest of the ride went smoothly but quiet until we pulled up to the house
" you know what we should just go back home"
" novia were already here now it was an hour drive so you're getting your ass in that house"
I just rolled my eyes getting out of the car Ik I was feeling for her but now that I'm here I don't think it's a good idea
" go ahead and knock" I was so stuck in my thoughts I really didn't realize we were at the front door I knocked and zay answered
" hey wassup what y'all doing here ?"
Mal nudged me " I came to talk to momma" I mumbled
He just started laughing but stopped once he seen I was serious " oh you dead ass" I shook my head " well come in" we walked in and walked to the living room
" zay who was at the door" I heard my mommas voice and started to regret coming here , " oh heyyyy baby" she said smiling looking at mal she looked over and seen me and scrunched her face up
" I thought I made it perfectly clear I didn't want this girl in my house zayviontay" I laughed in my head that niggas name was ghetto as hell thats why he only let people call him zay
" come on ma don't call me that , but she's here to talk so chill" she looked at me and laughed "talk? Talk ? What could we possibly have to talk about" then zay and mal walked out leaving us alone great niggas just great
" well you gone talk or keep wasting my time"
" why Tasha" I asked not calling her momma
" why what denovia" y'all see why I don't like talking to this lady she's a smart ass 🙄 I froze and took a deep breath
" why don't you love me ? You haven't loved me since I got here , why do you hate me so much huh ?" I broke down I've had so much pain in me for years and it was finally out she looked at me and did the unexpected she was crying too but quickly wiped her tears away " you want to know why I "hate" you so much novia" "your not mine" wait what she mean im not hers ?
" wait what ? What are you talking about" " you heard me novia you're not my daughter, your no good ass father cheated on me and got some bitch pregnant 9 months later poof you where here your mother was so strung out she couldn't take care of you and didn't want you really we made up and your father got full custody of you and brought you in at first I was pissed but then I actually grew to love you that is until you started getting older and you started to remind me so much of your mother and started to look like her me and your father argued nonstop about you , that's when I grew to really not like you Ik kids are innocent but you wasn't mine & your dad pissed me off beyond words so when he "died" wait why she do quotations wtf I sent you to live with his mother and the rest is that"
" so my whole life has been a lie wow" by this time I was full blown crying " did my maw maw know ?" She nodded " wait does does zay know" " of course he knows he is MY child why you think I kept him and not you" " I mean technically y'all are blood related but not fully"
She laughed now that I have the truth they all can go to hell my sadness quickly turned into anger " I HATE YOU I HATE YOU , THIS IS ALL LAUGHS FOR YOU YOURE A SICK PERSON" whether I was hers or not she couldn't even respect me enough to help instead of hate me , I was storming out of the kitchen when she yelled my name " WHAT" " why don't you ask your maw maw what really happened to your father , oh and don't bring yourself around my house again" I thought I didn't like her before now I hate her beyond words
I stormed out and went outside only to see zay and mal smoking on the porch " go off don't go off" I said back and forth in my head "fuck it go off"
" hey sus how'd it go" perfect thanks for giving me a reason to go off on your ass
" FUCK YOU ZAY"
" woah what ?"
" YOU HEARD ME FUCK YOU , YOU KNEW THIS WHOLE TIME AND DIDNT TELL ME SHIT I THOUGHT WE WERE BETTER THAN THAT" he was completely confused
" novia whatever she told you was a lie man chill out"
" no fuck chilling you KNEW this whole time yet you pretended & tried so hard to get us to talk and work it out but you fucking knew you knew the reason she didn't like me this whole time you are not shit" he started getting teary eyed " nono what are you talking about whatever it is I'm sure I can explain"
" no fuck you zay I don't wanna see or talk to you again I can't believe my whole life has been a lie and from YOU ? You're my other half" I forgot all about Jamal being there and I hopped in the car speeding off full speed
I was crying so hard my chest started hurting really hard my vision started going in and out " relax novia" I told myself then
BOOM everything went black............