Life Or Death | Poetry |

I New You Were Trouble But My Heart Burned With Mystery

Dear first love,

First things first. I hope you are doing fine and still being dramatic.

Finally, by gathering all the courage and emotions, I have penned down what I have been thinking for a very long time.

It has been the months already. The months of battling from headaches that causes tears and sorrow.

I can't remember how many attempts did I make just to move on and forget everything. But, every time when I take a step forward, there are the memories which pulled me back.

This is all from the depth of my heart. Not even a day has passed when I haven't taken your name. I miss you every day. And why shouldn't I? You are the one who gave meaning to my love after my mother. How can I forget you?

And yes I tried everything to forget you, even started hating you. But it seems that the love I have for you overpowered the hate many times over.

I never thought everything will end the way it did. It was the worst.

You know better than anyone that I ain't so expressive but today I am just overwhelmed with emotions and they burst out like this.

Being a boy we all are told not to cry. Just bear with the pain, put a smile on your face. Never let anyone know what's going on inside your heart. And this is who I am.

But never mind, it's not a fairy tale. We live in a practical world. I will have to accept reality. I appreciate and believes everything because it happens for a reason.

You made the strongest and mature person that I am before.

Wishing you all the happiness in life.

Thanks for being my first love.

You're always in my heart.