It's time.

Hear me out.

Sam, I want to start out by just telling you that I appreciate so much and I want to thank you for being there for me.
Sam the past 2-3 months have been like a wild roller coaster, everything from pure happiness and enjoyment to not wanting to live. Throughout that entire time the only thing on my mind was you and only you, you've shown me what it's like to be myself and not care about what others think. You've helped me better my relationships with friends and family. Though I was a jerk and a complete asshole you still stuck with me and helped me be the man I am today. I don't know how much I've changed how I've changed all I know is that I'm trying my best and you helped me tremendously. If I had one wish it would be for you you give me another chance because I treated you wrong. I hurt you and it's all hurting me now. I want to show you the man you made me and not the man people wanted me to be. My genuine happiness and and enjoyment of life comes from you and people tell me not to rely me happiness on someone but I just can't, you truly and honestly make me super happy. All I want to you is make you happy and be the best person I can for you. If I can just get one chance I'll be the happiest ever knowing that you're mine and that now it's my full responsibility to make you happy and make sure you're alright, even though that what I'm doing right now. I don't know if you know this or not but I'm madly in love with you. Sam you are so beautiful and have such a great personality. No matter what you're going through or no matter what you'll go through I'll be there by your side, hold your hand and give you all my strength, even though you're mentally stronger than me. Almost every night I see us together happy, laughing and just loving each other. I've seen that so many times that I want it to be reality. Sam I've spent countless amounts of hours crying and hating myself because my mistake I made which hurt you. To be honest I'm tearing up writing this. I'm so sorry for what I've done, I deserve the worst but I want to make it up to you by showing you I'm not that guy anymore. I missed being loved by you. I miss those little moments where you'd sit across the room and roll your eyes at me. I miss that day in Spanish where we were playing uno and you had this beautiful black dress with flowers and your hair was straight and we sat close and just goofed off. I can still feel your hands messing up my hair. I want to make more moments like those. Samantha I'm sorry for what I've done and each moment I've hurt you, please give me another chance I genuinely love you and that love isn't fading anytime soon.
                                                                             - Tej. P