"What about me?" (Joshua Hong)

Don't

《SEUNGCHEOL》

None of us could reall sleep, Jeonghan, Joshua, and Dk have their own rooms. Jun and Dino share a room with Seungkwan. Mingyu shared a room with Woozi, he couldn't even enter the room. I made him sleep in my room with Wonwoo and I slept on the couch.

We were up before all of our alarms went off. We had to eat breakfast, knowing we needed the energy. And by the time our manager pulled up infornt of the dorms with the cars. We were all waiting outside. We were egar to get back to the hospital. We raced into the room, and the nurse sensed our presence. She kept her head low, and let out a sigh. "Yoon Jeonghan did not make it through the surgery. I'm sorry for your loss once again." She says.

That was it. That was it for me. I broke, I was destroyed. I crashed to my knees, and had a break down, in the middle of the hospital, in front of everyone. Jeonghan was my best friend. And he was gone. All the thing I could have done to save him went through me head. I didn't even see him that morning before we left. We were all so busy that none of us had a normal chance to talk, to hang out.

"Boo Seungkwan?" Vernon chokes out. He's still asleep and is barely hanging on, I can only allow one person to go see him." She says even though we all want to see Seungkwan, we all let Vernon go. He needed to, he was the closest to Seungkawn. "Hong Jisoo and Lee Seokmin are still sleeping but will wake up." She smiled sadly and walked away.

At this point I had given up. I was laying on the floor, my hand covering my mouth, trying to mute me cries. Dino had layed down right next to me. He hugged me tightly, he was also crying. The rest of the members sat down on the floor and we hugged. No one cared. They felt sympathy for us, I was glad the paparazzi and dispatch weren't here, I felt grateful they were giving us our space.

《Vernon》

I was so nervous as the nurse directed me towards Seungkwans room. I open the door, and bite my lip trying not to cry. There was Seungkwan strapped to the hospital bed. Machines and wires connected to his bruised and cut up body. I silently pulled up a chair.

"I remember when we talked about going out for lunch soon. We planned on sneaking out of rehearsals in 2 days. And go eat wherever we go." I say. "I would break you out of vocal practice. We figured Woozi would have our butts on a platter, Jeonghan and Seungcheol would lecture us, and Joshua and Dk would laugh at us." I laugh softly.

"But it wouldn't matter, cuz we wouldn't care, we would be together. Caught up in the moment. Like predeubt time." I say. "Kwanie Plz you need to wake up. I need you to wake up." I say tears, streaming down my face. "I can't do this without you." I say laying my hand on his. I look at his heart monitor which was beating slowly. I place my head down on the bed.

《Seungcheol》

If things couldn't get worse. They did. Vernon was escorted back to us, by a nurse. Vernon was crying hard. "Boo Seungkwan just passed away. I'm sorry for you loss." The nurse said. Wow 2 deaths. I really hope and pray for good results with Joshua and Dk.