teaser//jolinsky

XXXVI

Johnsons's POV

*Two weeks later*

"Jack hun you need to need something for today. It's already nine thirty at night." My mom sighed, coming into her living room with a bowl of rice and veggies along with some chicken. I shake my head and turn the other way, hiding my face in the couch pillow.

For the past two weeks I've been staying with my mom and aunt in their apartment, yeah i've been sleeping on her couch but at least it's shelter. And by what you've just read I haven't been eating well. One meal a day and then at night I head out to seven eleven and buy 2 mini pints of cake batter ice cream, as well a mini bag of hot cheetos. I open the beg and just soak in the smell for Gilinsky, I just usually cry and then have my mom eat them since I can't handle spicy food.

Yes I am THAT white.

"Just leave it on the coffee table and I'll eat it soon. Thank you." I mumble. My mom sits next to my feet, putting them in her lap.

I usually don't talk to her that much about my mental health because there are just certain people that I am a certain way around. She is a true sunshine and deserves the world so I don't want to see her sad. She knows about my depression and anxiety, but I never want to talk about it with her. I'll show it through facial expressions or by the way I move. Or I just say "It's one of those days".

But this feeling was different. 

"I remember the first date I had with your father. He's been asking for a while but I never budged, he was the class clown in our chemistry and AP Government and Law class so I figured he was immature, but I finally said yes." She giggled. She never talks about dad, she told me memories, but never old memories before they had me.

"He took me to this planetarium and we walked through absolutely everything. It was all so beautiful, and I learned so much too, he didn't fail to tell me every fact about Jupiter hahaha. Right before we about to leave, he grabbed my hand and ran to the star show they were about to put on. I didn't want to fall asleep so I was hesitant. It was the last show that night so it was just us, an older couple, and a family with a disabled son. We sat two rows back of the old couple and he held my hand as the show started." She gripped her thumb that had a ring on it.

"He of course watched the show and loved learning about the stars. But the older couple caught my eye. The lady rested her head on the old mans shoulder, who had to wheel an oxygen tank with him. He leaned in with her and sighed peacefully. There was a slight pause of speaking and the room was covered with projected stars. He looked up and pointed to the Lyra constellation. 'Thats you Lyra! My star always, for the past 63 years angel.' That was her name and they didn't have titles on the screen, so he memorized it for her. she giggled and kissed his cheek. In that moment I looked at your father, John, and just admired the amazement that he had from seeing the stars." She smiled closing her eyes.

"In that moment some how some way, I knew he was the one that was going to take me to star shows when we are old and need a cane to walk. I rested my head on his shoulder and squeezed his hand. He gasped for a second, but then smiled, I felt his cheeks warm up. Jack he was the love of my life, if you told me 15 years later I would lose him in a car accident with a drunk driver I wouldn't believe you. I would spend weeks and weeks crying and wishing it would've happened to me instead, because he was an amazing man who should've seen his son grow up to be amazing human. I wanted him back and just wanted to wake up next to him again, hug him again, have more children. But he was gone."

Small tears rolled down her cheeks, as well as mine and I didn't even notice. She loved him so much I never noticed. He was her soulmate. "W-Wow mom I never knew." I spoke, sitting up next to her. She pulled me into a side hug, and it was tight.