Every day is the same . Wake up , go to school , come home and try to avoid the thoughts that always seem to be waiting for me , but lately it's been a little different . ive been in the hellingly children's hospital for about 4 weeks now . they say it's because im not stable enough or level headed enough to have a normal routine yet and when i first got here i thought it was bullshit , but now im kind of grateful . im not always sad like most people think i am , just i get these mood swings that a lot of people don't understand . they call it ' bipolar disorder ' i think they just make up these names to make themselves feel better , ya know ? shove pills down her throat and she's healed , right ? its okay though . not like i take them anyways , why fake heal yourself and make it look worse when you explode ? higher doses means longer hospital time . " tyler , wake up its 1:40 time to take your meds . " the nurse says , shaking me awake . i sit up annoyed and confused . " wow another day , another antidepressant right " pouring the paper cup full of pills into my mouth , pushing them where they're unseen . " happy ? " she rolled her eyes and walked out into the hall , calling for the doctor to tell him ive taken the dose . " she took it . does 1 of 4 today . " when she leaves i usually put them under my bed , ya know .. save them for a good day . this has become my new normal . but this place isn't all bad , the foods great and my parents aren't allowed to visit sense everything went down so it's pretty nice here . theres only one thing i miss being away from . liam , my boyfriend . im totally , physically , emotionally in love with him with every bone in my body . " goodmorning liam , i miss you so much . " i text him at 1 : 48 . i talk to him whenever i can , or whenever he replys . we haven't talked much sense i left but i try my best . " i hope it it all goes well and your health gets better , but im done " 1 : 53 p.m
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Sorry this is probably really bad it just makes me feel better to write so yeaaha . ♡♡♡
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Teen Fictionnobody will ever love you , as much as you love yourself . does that scare you ?
