Inseparable (Tokoyami X Shoji ship)

Part 3

Ahhhhh Hello again! Sorry, this is again taking forever haha I know I come up with a lot of excuses but ahh nobody cares haha! Well, I had a lot of time to think about what I wanted to write and so here it enjoys my story!

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Tokoyami's POV

Shoji and I kissed for like a good five minutes. ( A/N Alright I keep getting asked how tf can Shoji kiss Tokoyami when he has a fucking beak?!!?! Well, I honestly don't know but let's just say they're using tongue XD oml y'all won't get it because I'm bad at explaining soo just ignore it I know I said I'd explain it but like... I SUCK AT IT!!) I didn't want to stop just the feeling of his lips with mine feels so good he's a really good kisser. In the past, I use to think how the heck is someone going to kiss me with my big ass fucking beak? Well, it's kinda complicated but somehow shoji managed to kiss me with my beak. After the five minutes was done he got off of me and helped me up. We just kinda stood in silence after what had happened it was kinda awkward having our first kiss when we're not even dating and he's straight! God, I hate how he's straight! I can't tell him I'm gay because then he might not even accept me for who I am and then there goes our friendship! Yeened ( A/N Yeen is an inside joke between YaBoiSero and me lol it's just yeet but with an n lol ) out the fucking window!! I don't want to lose our friendship maybe it's just best that we stay friends and I never tell him I'm gay and that I like him a lot.

All of a sudden Shoji starts talking and he says " Hey Toko are you okay?" I didn't know how to respond to his question even though it's a fucking easy ass question I ended up running out of the room because I wanted to cry and I was thinking about a lot of things that had just happened I needed some time to think about it.

Shoji's POV:

I don't know what just happened I opened the door fast to talk to Tokoyami and confess my feelings to him even if he's straight I won't care I'll somehow make him like me! But all of a sudden when I opened the door I landed on Tokoyami and I kissed him! We stayed kissing for a couple of minutes it was kinda nice ( A/N I do not know how they could kiss with Tokoyami's big ass fucking beak so don't @ me lol) but I could tell Tokoyami didn't like it so I helped him up and we just stood there in silence for a while and I asked Tokoyami if he was okay and he didn't reply and I was about to speak again but then he ran out of the room. I decided to give him some time because I know he doesn't like it at all and he probably thinks that I'm some weird homo!

I walked back to my room and sat on my bed just thinking about things. A lot of negative things. I'm worried Toko thinks I'm weird he'll probably never hold my hand while we're walking, I'll never get to cuddle him when he's scared, I won't be able to do anything! I don't want our friendship to end but I don't want to be his friend I want him! I need him! I just really really need him! I don't think I can live without him. I decided to stop thinking about those thoughts because it seems like it's getting late I checked the time and realized OH SHIT IT'S 9:36 PM!! And Tokoyami is still not home because I haven't heard the door at all. Oh god, how long have I been lost in my thoughts?!?! I got up from my bed and went to go look for Tokoyami like what a good friend should do.

Tokoyami's POV:

I chickened out! I'm a stupid fucking bird who can't just say what I feel! UGH! I HATE THIS! I RAN AWAY TO THE FUCKING BEACH AND I HATE THIS BECAUSE I CAN NEVER MAN UP! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!? I hate myself I can't do things I want to do because then I end up getting too nervous and I hate it a lot ugh! Why can't I be like everyone else and just say what I feel to the person I like? I hate how I can't do anything right! All my friends and classmates are in relationships! Even Midoriya he's the cinnamon roll and he knows more about relationships than I do and he was the one who confessed to Todoroki in the first place! LIKE AHH, HOW COULD YOU GET A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE ME?!?! He's supposed to be a cute cinnamon roll and not date anyone he shouldn't even know what it is!!

Ahhhh what am I thinking I sound like a complete jerk! All of a sudden I hear somebody talking to me and I go to look who it is and it's Monoma Ugh! Nobody likes that stupid jerk! "If you don't confess your stupid feelings soon to Shoji then he's going to move on and forget you and then you'll die of loneliness and everyone will forget about you and you'll be the only person in the world all alone!" I just gave Monoma a weird look and then realized wait he's right I am gonna be all alone in this world and Shoji will never like me... I started to cry a bit and Monoma kept pestering me making me feel even worse... I should just end myself... Nobody even wants me here and nobody even likes me... Monoma finally left me alone and when he left I just kept crying... It honestly really hurts because I don't want to be alone I don't... I want Shoji and if he can't return those feelings to me then that's alright. Yeah, it'll hurt so fucking bad but it'll be alright because I will know I'm not right for anyone and nobody will like me for who I am like nobody likes kissing a fucking bird with a beak!! God, I wish I wasn't so fucking insecure about my face! Starting tomorrow I'm taking it off!! Fuck this shit!!

After a while of crying and putting myself down with the negative thoughts, I decided to go back to back to the UA dorms. I didn't want anyone to worry about me... I mean nobody would even be worrying about me because nobody likes me...

CHAPTER END

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Alright thank you all for reading my story it means a lot to me I'm so sorry that this was very shitty I'm really new to this and I procrastinate a lot and I'm also busy with school so I'm really sorry also I'm sorry that this has really shitty grammar I'm bad at spelling and I don't really remember how to write in formal so I'm trying my best and I didn't want to bother my friend to proofread it because they are on vacation and I don't want to bother them while they are enjoying Vacation. Thank you for reading and I hope to see you all in the next chapter...

Also, I'm planning on making Tokoyami a depressed Birdo I'm so sorry this is my story and I will write it however I want and if you don't like it then please don't read this story it's not for you then... So please do not judge me because this is my first fanfic so I'm kinda new to this. Also, thank you all for supporting me! Also, another thing I'm so sorry this is really short I'll try to make the next chapter longer okie

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