Did You Really Save Me

Chapter Thirty-One

Max POV

I woke up to the ceiling of the medic room, not what I was expecting. I expected to be in the bathroom, not here. I start panicking again because that means they found Benjamin in the other room. I close my eyes and try to calm down. Someone grabs my arm and tries to calm me down as well but with a soothing voice, it only makes me panic more knowing it would be an Article member.

"Breathe M.X," the voice says, "deep breaths in, and deep breaths out. That's it, keep your eyes closed until you feel better." I follow the instructions and I calm down, I don't want to open my eyes. I gather up the courage and open them, to my surprise there is only Levi looking down at me with concern and not all of the members with guns pointed at me wanting to kill me, not what I was expecting.

"How are you feeling M.X?" Levi asks, "ah- better, thanks." I awkwardly croak out while looking everywhere but him. He seems to notice and chuckles, I flinch out of reflex. Because normally my father would chuckle and then torture me or chuckle while he is torturing me, but they didn't need to know that. Levi notices and stops abruptly, scaring me a bit. Why am I so jumpy? I'm in a gang for fuck's sake and I have killed many people. As I am having an internal battle with myself Levi walks out of the room.

After arguing with myself for a few minutes I notice that there is no-one in the room besides me. It's uncomfortable. Voices grow closer and louder towards the door, I quickly lay down and roll on my side and try and to go sleep or at least act like I was. The people walk into the room.

"Yeah, he completely freaked out when he saw the room. It took him a while to calm down." Levi's voice was heard, "is he ok? Having two panic attacks in a short span of time can't be good for him." The other voice, Sean, replies. They don't seem to notice I'm trying to sleep. "Yeah he is ok as he could be I guess, he just needs some time to rest and regain energy, those panic attacks would have taken it out of him," Levi responds, they walk closer to the bed and sit down in front of me. I didn't even notice there were chairs there. Sean reaches up and strokes my hair, unknowingly to him and Levi it makes me drift off to sleep.

I have never had this kind of love before, if I cried when I was a baby no-one tried to soothe me all they did was ignore me until I stopped, or yelled at me to be quiet. My mother tried to be the best mother she could but my father held her back from doing all the things a mother should be doing. My father didn't try and help her with anything.